Love is - FT Island

Hongki said he doesn't want to hv gf w plastic surgery!
Also the first question he will ask when meeting (Korean) girl will be, 'Did you get plastic surgery?'

Everyone is relaxing at the lounge of FNC building, waiting for Yonghwa

HK Ai, did you get plastic surgery? *stares at Ailing with intense interest*

*akward silence, everybody feels embarrassed, but also curious*

Ai *prompt and with serious face* Of course! I had EEEVERY surgery out there!

*restrained laughter, except Hongki*

HK No, for real! I'm just curious!
Ai It's true! I had several implants, nose job, 4 eye surgeries, jaw shaving, cheekbone shaving, lips, boob job, I even break my bones to became taller! I can't even remember every surgery I had!
HK That was a serious question! Just answer truly! No need to be ashamed! Many~
Ai I'm not ashamed! I'm telling the truth! In reality I'm a male black Lilliputian!!
HK Aaisshi~ Why don't you answer seriously! Many of my friends had things done! Nobody minds in our business! It's~
Ai Huh? *short laughter* I am totally serious? Shouldn't you be happy Hongki-sunbae?
HK Aaaishhiii~! I just~ *gets up and walks towards soda machine*

*akward silence*

JH ahh... Ailing, don't mind him. Hongki is always like this. It doesn't mean anything *smiles*
JJ Yes, Hongki will joke around like that
SH When I was new, I was very shocked of how he treated me! I was scared of Hongki-sshi!

*everybody laughs*

Ai No, I don't mind *laughs* I just don't think, that you shouldn't ask this question to anyone. No matter what your ideals are.

*silence*

Ai But, I really don't mind *laughs* It's really nothing *laughs again*
JH *looks at phone* Yonghwa sure takes a long time....

*everyone looks at next available clock*

JJ yeah, what is he doing?

*everyone starts to wonder*

A door opens, Yonghwa says goodbye to someone and comes out

JH What took you so long?
YH ah nothing... *greets everyone via eye contact* Hi, Ailing
Ai *shy* Hello
YH Where's Hongki?
JH He's~

Hongki comes back

HK Yonghwa kyaaaa~ *jokingly does aegyo sprint halfway to greet Yonghwa*
YH Whaddup my brother? *weird handshake with Hongki*

*everybody laughs*

YH Should we go?

*everyone agrees and gets up*

wooooord...

Chu, Ailing

서울이 싫어졌어 - 이천원

I am watching football now that I have finished (a certain amount of) studying.
I know I said I'd study more and well, this was more (even if not much). Yesterday didn't work so well, because I went to a fair with my roommate. I haven't been for a long while and it was very entertaining. The smell of cotton candy, and all the colourful, shining signs and the typical voices advertising different attractions. I had a crêpe after a really long time.
It might be the 2nd I ever had, because I don't like sweet things at all. Especially warm ones.

Well today was study day, although lately I get up really late and thus miss half of the days anyway. That is because I fall asleep very late and hate to wake up, too. Not very cool qualities.
I'm starting to think that I have ADHD. Only one of the 99.999 things that I recently start to doubt about myself~
I find myself thinking of every and anything else to do while studying. It might be singing or checking out this site or a product or eating or going to the toilet, whatever. It's really hard to study like that. But I must learn to gain control.

I absolutely must learn to be more time-efficient. It is one of my top (out of 2) worries!


The picture was taken on Mother's Day a while ago. It was one of those days when rain and sunshine took turns with one another incessantly.
Although it looks like it was a very gloomy day I think the sun probably started to shine brightly only moments after. But it's the gloominess that I love about this picture; the rain onto that beautiful landscape and then on the left site rails, industry, anti-nature,... I also love the old dark-framed window and the flowers in the foreground which I got for my mother that morning.


I'm going to study a bit more and continue with the football match!
Chu, Ailing

Urgh I'm going crazy.
It's bed time then it's really not and I could stay awake for 3 more hours and still be able to go to school.
Then I want to check out dresses, but then really not, because I wouldn't buy one, because I have one.
Then I want to do the maths homework since forever, but I don't because I don't get it and wikipedia is a bitch.


So what do I fucking do now? /rage



This about sums up my distress at this very moment. FU
I go drink sth now and then see~


I think I will go right to the gym tomorrow after school, even if it will destroy my legs... I got certain reason to go ww
Then Friday can not go. But Saturday maybe~

Ok I really hope that it won't destroy my legs too much. So I can do my regular programme on Saturday. If not then I skip too often and have to start anew~

it's 9pm and I'm very tired already.

I like travelling at night time, because it's so dark outside and you only see lights and can make out some dark shapes that could be a hill or the horizon. Everything seems kind of mysterious and the things that are bright seem double important.

That's why I also don't mind/ like to drive at night although I normally hate driving.
But at night it feels like you travel through space and time w Or in outer space.
It seems kind of unreal... that or I'm just weird.
It has this kind of 'cruising through the darkness'-feel... !!

To keep you updated about my diet:
The last 2 days I ate enough for like 10 days or so. Not sure if I gained it all back, bt surely a bit at least.
I also snacked like nobody ever cared.

I think I actually want to go to the gym~
Even if I can do only cardio... Better than nothing.
I know if I'm so reluctant to go to the gym why don't I just save the money and stay at home and do some sports there. But at home I can't be motivated to move at all. I need equipment and the right atmosphere.
Sounds dumb but so is humankind...

And I again forgot my cam... So annoying~ I can't share any pictures, just these spamy test posts (I'm aware that they don't look very welcoming w)

But I gonna have my bro bring it to me in a few days... Hopefully he won't forget it...

Ok I really want to nap now, ttyl

Darn it! Feels so good to nap. I just wanna arrive home watch Star Trek and falls asleep again www
Or to travel in here forever. It's dark, warm, fascinating and softly rocking to and fro.. oh yes, driving home in a bus at night is the best thing ever. Except for being a millionaire, that's maybe a bit better. But only a bit...

Bt I'm home soon.
I look forward to a bit of school tml and even more sleep during the day www
Omg I'm such a boring stay-at-home. Why do I even own a blog?!

I hate lab work so so much. At least this time round I have a nice partner who work with, and I trust her to be a bit more skilled and knowledgable about lab work than me www. Because I SUCK.


Anyway I bought this Victoria's Secret bikini top in black.

Victoria's Secret Beach Sexy Cropped Top

The image looks ridiculous. It's really hard to find a bardot style bikini top like this.
I've searched everywhere, but could only find VS, Urban Outfitters , Beach Riot and Lolli Swim (both last season) selling this cut.
Plus the top is really really very tight. I nearly couldn't squeeze myself in ww.

I now need a nice bikini bottom(s) and then I'm all set. To go. To Singapore. And never come back. 짱!

And finally going to order a scale now. Looking forward to it. Whoever said money couldn't buy happiness, doesn't know happiness. Money only buys happiness.


Ok, see you again tomorrow.
Chu, Ailing

rain

Too goddamn tired to blog!
Today was super long day, although I could sleep til nearly 9... but then I stay at school til past 5. After that a girl from class and I drag each other to Mc.
I ate so friggin much probably enough for 3 days !!!!


Because of my situation right now the last few days I had a total of maybe 600 calories intake!!! Like one package of maoam, one sandwich and a pretzel stick! And like a glass of sprite!!
Today was humongous burger, sprite and fries!! I should have thought about my diet before agreeing to go to Mc, but my mouth quicker than my brain >.<
Anyway I need to ganbare through this now that I found out I can very well survive with only one small meal per day!!


Anyway I'm so tired I just want to go to bed and sleep... But I still have to study a bit and print out stuffs for school... I don't know what's it about my personality, but I absolutely hate to print stuff for school, or look up things for school, etc...



At least today is rainy day... But it didn't rain when I looked outside. I wish it would rain exactly like in 黒子のバスケ ep 12 (the coach girl and the glasses player have some chemistry going on right? why don't they just confess lah /hiaZz haha). The rain in there is especially beautiful. Somewhat sad and strong, but then again very soft... (Yes, I'm rain-obsessed).
At least it's windy or stormy, so it lifts up my mood a bit. (eh? because it's kinda cold I get goosebumps from watching 黒子のバスケ ww)


A and I today chat all day about Singapore! She was at work, I hope everything goes well and we can both go!!

Ok, that's all for today. I'm honestly forcing myself to blog daily, even if it only has a therapeutic effect... (if anything)


Chu, Ailing

二人の娘 - KOKIA

Welcome to today's afternoon show Major Procrastination, I'm your host Ailing Chu. Let's start today's episode with our new feature 'What to do when you want to do nothing and your eyes are a damn sleepy?' Hello, lazy part of Ailing's personality.

Hello Ailing, glad to see you. So being lazy and having slept for too long I spent maybe 3 hours since I am awake trying to figure out what the fuck I could do, since I wanted to do nothing at all! I finally managed to start stream Star Trek: The Next Generation, since I wanted to re-watch the whole series for a while. Been reloading the page for the last hour since video keeps crashing due to super slow internet!
Just now I made myself a tea - rosehip, the best tea if you're a childish type of tea savourer - and am skipping through the newest H&M magazine somemore.
And that's already it for today I hope you have a wonderful Monday and see you again next time.

Well thank you lazy Ailing for that interesting piece of advise I'm sure to pick it up for myself!


... err yeah at least it's raining and so I feel a bit better, but I absolutely can't be arsed to do anything productive.
Reading magazines is at least some sort of educational or entertaining, so I'm ok with that. I love reading magazines, because most articles in them are about popular subjects they are much more interesting than books. I don't like fiction, I prefer broadening content that lets me learn about other people's mindset, world view and opinions on everyday subjects.
Even in fashion magazines are maybe especially in those you can find articles that will enlighten you in a useful way, because they deal with much more immediate and seizable stuff than politics or science (you have to admit that clothes and make-up are really very 'everyday life'). And with useful way I don't mean they tell you what is cool and what is uncool to wear so you can walk around (feeling that you) looking better than the rest of humankind.
No, I mean that fashion writers explain and investigate the current zeitgeist, the mood of society, which is ultimately the profound background of all that's happening. Soo interesting, or not? Haha Also the parts about beauty and wellness they just help you to feel good and discover new things. What could be more interesting than fashion magazines? love


So yeah enjoying those and the wonderful rain and I was in Munich to get a digital perm and am on day 3 of 3 days that I can't wash my hair (makes any sense?)

Chu, Ailing

거북이 - 다비치

하고 싶은 아무것도 아니다.
하야 할 걸, 필요할 걸 하고 싶지 않아요.
그래도- 하고 싶은 것들... 없어


적어도 다음 토요일 마침내 파마를 하러 뮌헨에 간다...

I'm posting this while on the go again, right now I wonder if celebrity lifestyle is like this. Alone, on some tour bus, always going from one place to another.
Actually I just thought that not posting anything would be a waste of time, but I have really nothing I would want write about just like this on my phone. I have been noting down some thoughts of mine into my diary (eventually) and will blog about them in a free minute, when all the stress I'm going through now is over.

While sorting through my millions of drafts just now I found an uber ridiculous post about smelly life. I guess I'll post it some day just for a good laugh. It sounds like I fucking studied law haha
Also I miss how I used to write back then, many trivial rants, full of insults and slang~ I thought I had to write in a more mature way, because writing like dis is stupid la, but now I think I understand everyone should have his own style (as long as it's not totally retarded like smelly life's spelling chaos).

I'm a bit into weight-loss again and my problems are two:

/ whenever I have the choice between food or no food, I shit onto weight loss and eat

/ mostly I forget abt my diet plans and just eat normally, then lying in bed I'm like, 'I actually planned to skip dinner'

So what I really have to remind myself of is that this is a every second-challenge. Every second you have to decide between good or bad. Every second you have to be observant to your actions and conscious of your goals.

below pizza fait maison, just to see how pictures look when posted via app

슬픔만은 아니겠죠 - 문명진

안녕안녕.
요즘에는 많이 비 오면 좋겠다~ (이건 비가 오지 않기 때문이다)
나 공부할수 없고 어두워지고 있어요.

내 룸메이트와 방문하는 일본 친구가 스타벅스에서 커피를 마실때 나 공부하려고 집에 있고 있다~

나중에 두 사람을 쇼핑하려고 만난다.
뇌용 멘톨 담배를 필요한다 ㅋㅋ


추애린

One Week - Digimon OST

아~ 지금 공부를 해야 돼요. 그러나 공부를 많이 해서 심심해요.
그러면... 어떻게? 뭘 해요?


심심해면 먹고 싶어요.
그런데 다이어트를 하고 있어요! 먹지 말아요!
“Be strong, starve on, study on!” ㅋㅋ


Chu, Ailing