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Monday, 27 January 2014


I'm posting this while on the go again, right now I wonder if celebrity lifestyle is like this. Alone, on some tour bus, always going from one place to another.
Actually I just thought that not posting anything would be a waste of time, but I have really nothing I would want write about just like this on my phone. I have been noting down some thoughts of mine into my diary (eventually) and will blog about them in a free minute, when all the stress I'm going through now is over.

While sorting through my millions of drafts just now I found an uber ridiculous post about smelly life. I guess I'll post it some day just for a good laugh. It sounds like I fucking studied law haha
Also I miss how I used to write back then, many trivial rants, full of insults and slang~ I thought I had to write in a more mature way, because writing like dis is stupid la, but now I think I understand everyone should have his own style (as long as it's not totally retarded like smelly life's spelling chaos).


I'm a bit into weight-loss again and my problems are two:

/ whenever I have the choice between food or no food, I shit onto weight loss and eat

/ mostly I forget abt my diet plans and just eat normally, then lying in bed I'm like, 'I actually planned to skip dinner'


So what I really have to remind myself of is that this is a every second-challenge. Every second you have to decide between good or bad. Every second you have to be observant to your actions and conscious of your goals.


below pizza fait maison, just to see how pictures look when posted via app

Wednesday, 22 January 2014


I'm actually using the Blogger app to create this entry (explains the lack of images due to missing HTML mode which I would have omitted anyway this time round). Sometimes I wonder if it's a good (or even necessary) idea to write a few thoughts of mine down - be it to clear or make up my mind or in order to remember things later on. Mostly I decide it's not worth it (sometimes because I'm lazy), because we are going to forget most of it again anyway. At times I'm playing with the thought of jotting everything down in my physical diary, but then I reckon it's mere existence is ridiculous.
So this time I'm going to give it a try and note down here what's been in my head the past few days. Because this is a blog and it should be full of my personal heart wrenching (first world) problems. <s>So quick tell me how to lose weight the fastest way!</s>

(Ok intro so long already, kinda got sleepy and this is actually the second time I'm writing this, first time got deleted) Lately I'm very angry and kind of sad (? I'm not sure if I know or remember what sadness is (funny how autocorrect tried to make that 'dementia')) about my inability to say what I want!! I just don't know but it is so impossible for me! It has sth to do with my parents' education. I'm pretty positive and I usually never blame my parents for anything, because I'm not a person who easily blames everyone else. Especially when it comes to important things this is a very bad character trait! I feel extra bad about this because it's New Year and it should be in my (inexistent) resolution list, but I wouldn't even dream of it. I don't even bother to make one, it is all in vain #wearealldoomed (will lose some words about that around CNY btw). So these days I'm really upset with myself and it makes me restless and leaves me wondering how I should overcome this fear of mine. I actually never bring up stuffs that will make people feel bad or in this case causes arguments, as I know how uncomfortable it is. For one I don't like to speak up against (some) people, but another thing is I e.g. don't like to orally relive embarrassing stories of my friends on a party just to share a good laugh or to make fun of them a bit. Kinda like we are talking about really gay fashion trends which are just the epitome if uglyness and then I'm like, 'U. didn't u like that, too?' - 'What?! She liked this?' laughter - 'Yeah, she used to have a huge crush on this dude who always wears those in neon pink!!' - U:'that was back in middle school!' - more laughter - 'You even wrote this 15p love letter!' and the stories go on. I know many people who do this and it's actually no big deal and they don't mean any real harm, but I could never. And even this makes me feel a bit bad, because it is due to a weakness that I can't do it. (Were we in anime land this would make me the hero and lead character since it's not a weakness, love is no weakness it makes you strong!!!)

I don't know if I have said all that comes to my mind now. I really hope I covered all the thoughts concerning this. It would be very troublesome had I not, because I can't repeat the same matter over and over again, right?  I figured out other flaws that I have lately, but now that I'm all set to blog my heart out of course I can't think of one. So yeah, that's it, I wonder how long this got and if I should add a song or not....

Oh btw my roommate had a very funny and sick dream: she was possessed by the devil and idk had to torture other souls and enjoyed it or burnt in hell? Something like that. We are definitely watching too much Supernatural!!

Chu Ailing

Saturday, 18 January 2014

2번째 - 어떻게


안녕안녕.
요즘에는 많이 비 오면 좋겠다~ (이건 비가 오지 않기 때문이다)
나 공부할수 없고 어두워지고 있어요.

내 룸메이트와 방문하는 일본 친구가 스타벅스에서 커피를 마실때 나 공부하려고 집에 있고 있다~

나중에 두 사람을 쇼핑하려고 만난다.
뇌용 멘톨 담배를 필요한다 ㅋㅋ


추애린

Sunday, 12 January 2014

Welcome








Candle 2 Blood Brother finally jump wagoning one the scented candles in a glass- trend. Which was kinda unwise b/c I hate perfume-ish smells, luckily this beautiful one comes w/ a cool silver lid! Cotton and wool headband &other stories a neutral-coloured headband to protect my ears from freezing over, since hats push my bangs into my eyes Lip balm - Orange Neon &other stories their make-up has awesome (silver) packaging! Despite its name/looks, the colour is quite sheer and thus leaving a fine vivid hint of orange on your lips
lipstick case I bought this one a whim, since black leather and it head no price tag on. 'Twas actually 20 USD !! Btw, I actually don't even know why lipstick cases exist in general... but it's cool Leather Mittens in Black Vintage Renewal Urban Outfitters I simply love mittens! There's something cute about them, but the tough material make them so mighty. I consider them to be perfect, so please let me keep them for a lifetime


LIBBY ankle boots Vagabond finally my pair of chunky smooth leather walker ankle boots after forever admiring them on Korean shops. Despite their height they're comfortable max, I feel like I can sprint in them (and beat you not, but that's another story) Triple Zip Clutch &other stories full grain black leather x chunky fashion item? Love! Plus I fancied clutches with handles for the longest time (actually since Angela Merkel's floating pink clutch, I don't intend to wear mine that way tho) Compact Styler Beloved Tangle Teezer (not pictured above) my friend had one and from it's unusual look I could already smell that this was sth special. I tried it out on my haven't-combed-for-ages hair and it went back to Mulan mode. So I got one myself and did I mention that I love shiny silver?

Some New In's (automatically equals fav's) from Christmas season. I don't know what got into me, but considering how I used to hate black leather (in particular black leather handbags, I couldn't imagine anything less classy back then) it's ridiculous I decided it's one of my favourite material not so long ago. Full-grain black leather even more. It must be the rebel in my soul that survived the age of the pink princess and now wants to bring out the bad ass biker. With lots of silver spikes, chains and other really hardcore stuff. Or how else can you explain the silver and black combination?
I feel more mature in all those quality materials and grown-up colours, a trait I certainly lack in and don't know of I should work on since I always wanted to be a child even when I was a child. But maybe it's all slowly happening on it's own, just like the pink princess disappearing. I have the feeling that I have been (and still am) in a finding out what you really want and what your place in life is - phase and I can tell you, it hurts (my pride) to be so cliché.
Recently I planned to read more. I like to learn about other people's mind and I guess I'm missing out on many inspirational thoughts. If you know any good non-fiction, please let me know. And I decided to have a huge collection of books later on. Not really novels or purely non-fiction, but many picture books, to feed my love for photography. I really want to buy 광고천재 이제석 (Advertisement Genius Yi Jeseok) at the moment. He really sets new standards in the advertisement industry, but it's hard (impossible) to find copies.

Part 2 and 3 of the (around) Christmas new in's are planned, as apart from the pressies I also kinda splurged on many things.

Lastly, apologies for my awful skin tone (looks like zombie skin) and the obvious Park&Cube similarities, I rushed this one and am uncreative =/


Chu, Ailing

Saturday, 7 December 2013

Once a snowy Saturday

Sun Space - Light Night Alumni

Wow, is it lame if I start this post with winter is here as in 'it's pretty hot lately, isn't it?' ? Because, winter is here , it's been storming and snowing loads and I watch like 3 Supernatural eps a day! (my fav is Sam, don't argue, don't steal).
Oh and I have a new theory about my neighbours: maybe they aren't (only) prostitutes, bt cast male porn actors! It's just that some of the guys who come to them act weird, not really like clients~ Actually a bit like nearly clients who are shocked to see them and leave as soon as they get there, but then again some don't really act like that, too... so~

Actually, tbqh I have a haul or several haul posts to write, a sequel of my skincare story has to be posted and I have some Korean fashion advice and lifestyle inspiration for you. Also I should introduce my new baby to y'all. When am I going to do this? - Ask Sam and Dean.*
Ok, j/k I'm going to start this skincare stuff today, well aware of the fact that I won't finish it til who knows.


Last time I told you about my terrible, terrible brake-out. It was in fact so terrible that I couldn't even wash my face anymore, because all the bumps (filled w pus or so) and what-not that I had scratched open burned like hell. I was at a point where I didn't even remember how it felt to wash one's face or to run your hand over your face without feeling a stinging pain. I never dreamt of ever having a normal complexion again. I couldn't simply imagine it.
I started to use Epiduo then and (ok, this starts to sound like a overly dramatic story-of-my-life ad on TV, only that) it didn't help it all, if anything it got worse. I don't want to blame it on the cream though, I think my bacteria was just too strong! I went to see my dermatologist again and got antibiotics prescribed. And I honestly don't know why everybody is so freaked out by antibiotics, like do you even know how they work? As I tried to google them a few days ago, I found out about all the people advising everyone against antibiotics against acne and that it would return as soon as you stop using it and it would destroy your immune system. At that time I couldn't care less (not because I was so desperate though, it was more cuz I actually eat expired food as long as it's not green). So I started to take one pill each day (I forgot the name, terribly sorry) for 50 days I believe. And guess what, that motherfucking break-out disappeared and never c[a]me back! I finished it since I guess over a month or two and I still have the usual pimples as I had before, but none of these pus-filled bumps and other stuff anymore.
All in all I would say that antibiotics are a very effective way to kill bacteria, which caused my zombie brake-out. But I guess that most bacteria nowadays are immune against acne antibiotics so I was really lucky that mine weren't and got killed.
If you're reading this and fighting with acne, too I wish you all the best ! Trust your doctor more than any random internet people! But go find a good doctor, google your town for a good one (most likely the most famous aka best one will pop-up at first) or ask someone you trust to know a good one!


Okay and now I actually would like to brag about my new baby but I don't have my camera with me atm so how about I show you some Scandinavian Christmas gift wrapping ideas and decoration inspos?
I'm a big sucker for everything Scandinavian styled currently and though it seems to be a bit simple or cold to deck your halls like this for the holidays, I still like the chic-ness.

1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 //


Okay that's it for today peeps, can't believe I managed to finish this post. Do you know how long it takes me to write one friggin blog post? It's embarrassing so I won't tell you.


Have a wonderful Christmas time!
Chu, Ailing


* Sam and Dean, 'Hey, we are on winter break til Jan 14th, so please don't blame us when you're lazy and unproductive, we get our shits done'

Friday, 1 November 2013

KCAB Α&Ω

All my Love is for You, Promise - 소녀시대
Through the night

My life is definitely like a movie! I should be an idealistic romantic character in some sort of (intelligent) romcom. Anw a word to my long MIA in twitter; I WOULD NEVER
really
QUIT BLOGGING AND EVEN NEVERER TWITTER, even if I'd hate to do it, I'd continue, cuz right now I'd hate myself for woulding doing it (this is no sentence, I know). As long as I live /sobs I will continue to do this /sobs /nice guy pose 一生の約束
But now, the storie(s) that caused and happened during my absence!
Oh yeah and my layout is down because my oh-so-awesome hoster decided that there was spam in my data bank or whatever. No worries!


I moved! And had no internet ever since! The only entertainment opportunity I had was my radio!! And the fridge... as long as I kept it filled with food. If not then I guess... a bed sounds nice too...
I live in a small apartment in a apartment tower, it's full of Indians and many Chinese people. It is actually quite nice, because we have beautiful light in here. Only our bathroom is a shame.


Better yet - we found out that we live next to - well guess. On our very first night, sometime past 8 a stranger rang our doorbell, we peeped through the spyhole, but only saw the silhouette of a stocky, shorter guy against the dark hallway. We freaked out and halfway locked ourself into Cy's bedroom. After a while I risked a further glimpse through the spyhole and saw the guy ringing the bell next door. He had turned on the hallway light but I could only see him from the side. Noone opened but he kept waiting until finally the light went out again. I held my breath and watched until he eventually turned on the light and rang again. This time they opened and he entered.
Our hearts were racing still hours afterwards. But first - can you guess what kind of neighbours we have?
How about this further detail: their super annoying loudly squeaking door opens up to 3 or 4 times per hour
Next story: Cy and I returned from the grocery and entered the building together with a man who happened to open the door in front of us. Although he waited until we entered, he hurried to the elevator, to take it before us. We took the next one and just when we entered the hallway to our apartment we saw him standing in the door of our neighbours. Talking to a women only dressed in underwear. They exchanged a few more words and then he left.

Soo? - Are our neighbours prostitutes or not? They are à deux and I kid(ded) you not when I said their apartment is being entered 3 or 4 times per hour. By men - only. Some men only stay for like 10 seconds, I guess they are giving them money, some men stay for a longer time. And yesterday I saw her again, standing at the apartment door, talking to a guy, obviously naked or nearly naked, but she hid behind the door before I could really see anything.

WTF 1st of all, I guess it's illegal to do those kind of stuff in a normal apartment, but what's even more astonishing is that, they don't even try really hard to hide it, do they? I think they repaired their friggin annoying door by now, but what's the use of that, if they only know how to slam it shut?
So yes, I live next to two prostitutes, is my life like a movie or not?


Not only that, but I think that the guy who lives above us is on LSD or sth. He listens to dreadfully loud electro crap at 5.30 in the morning !!! After giving a house party or sth like that the night before! Or whatever that is when you hear a bunch of people laughing and talking and from time to time the sound of a siren. Anyway, listening to music that is so loud that even the persons living under you can hear it - and by hear it I mean, I can nearly understand the words - is definitely a sign of sickness or LSD (or some other drug - have to confess, I'm not a pro) consumption. Anyway, it sucks, I tell you.


I don't really live in a ghetto, since there seems to be a surprising amount of really normal people staying in the same building and the neighbourhood is albeit far from picturesque, not of that really run down and disgusting type. In fact when you don't stand, but sit in my room, you only see trees (not the parking lot LOL) and with a setting sun behind them is has something of a tropical island sunset feel.


Another interesting story, the PayPal fraud.
Shortly after I moved I received this mail from PayPal saying a seller has filed a complaint against me (or however they call it). I was literally like WTF since I swear I have never sold anything in my life. Still, sometimes things happen and I don't know why, so at first I really doubted my memory, I couldn't even remember receiving the money (2.64USD). After twisting and wriggling this case for a while I found out that the buyer had paid for pants, which made it even more mysterious, because I couldn't think of any frigging pair of pants that I'd ever sell (or anyone would buy). I immediately thought that the 2.64USD must be some kind of refund so my brain checked that off and could forget all about it in peace. Still it took me a couple of days and a stupid convo with the buyer (are you sure you sent the money to the right paypal address? - just refund me my money) to realize that I had bought some shorts a time ago and they were smaller than in the description and I had asked for a refund of 2.64USD from the original price and the seller wanted to contact me again, but he never did and the next day I received 2.64 BUT from another person (which stupid me never noticed). I even tweeted about the whole story!! He obviously just wants the 2.64USD back and has the nerve to pull of such a dirty and disgraceful foul play. I wish he would be dead now.. or at least that I could still rate him, but it's too late.
Anyway, PayPal wasn't any help either, since hey - they don't read their messages or at least don't reply. So in the end after they didn't do anything, which basically means the buyer wins, I had to file a stupid complaint against the buyer - and only that did they read. So now if I got that right, they will refund the buyer, but with their own money and not mine. Uh-huh thanks, but the buyer needs a head shot and not the money. I'm honestly intending to buy sth from yisaiyibei18 again only to give him fatal rating.
Oh and the whole time I couldn't pay for a certain item, because PayPal withheld the 2.64 from my account. The weird thing was that I could buy two items from Germany, but not this specific one. Although they said, my balance was in the red, so I could balance that with my credit card. Which I did twice while doing the two German purchases. In the end I manually transferred money to my PayPal account (sorry if this is getting a bit economic-ish), but I still couldn't friggin pay! Also my minus grew to 2.66 !! I panicked and thought that they are charging interest -
BUT the indeed splendid deduction work I performed here revealed the following: the minus increased because of the ever changing currency exchange rate and I couldn't pay because I had a plus in euros, but still a minus in US dollars, that's also why I could pay the German stuff, but not this ebay business. I had to exchange the Euro, resulting into +/- 0 Euro and + in dollars. (Does that make any sense?)

Who's telling you shits like that normally, please? I mean if I hadn't done any of these, I'd lost 2.64USD, some stupid Chinese motherfucker would be encouraged to fuck around and I'd have gotten negative buyer ratings in ebay somemore! Eh?! /flips table



A last one: I was on the road (again) with Cy (again) and the Japanese crew. We were sitting in a train, when suddenly a drunk homeless old men entered our compartment, his pants down. I couldn't believe it and luckily his jacket was too long to see anything, but he actually sat down next to one of us. Oh My God, just when everyone started to silently freak out, a tough conductress entered and started to yell at the homeless guy and asked us all to leave. Gosh we were so happy that someone came to our rescue and all hushed into the next compartment. The conductress gave the man hell and then went to our compartment to call one police station after the other. They were all busy. After a while she left and I sat there with my shopping bags next to me and Cy and Mika behind me. I started to read the InStyle when I suddenly heard a yell and looked up: the disgusting hobo was standing at my seat, trying to figure our a way to sit on my shopping bags!!! I was so paralyzed with shock and fear that I could only stare at him, luckily the conductress saw him leaving the compartment she had reserved for him and once again chew his ass out. He obeyed and left, but my chest still felt like it would implode for the whole night and I felt so nauseated the whole time, that I was seriously close to throwing up when they said that our train was running late and because of every little jolt it made. I've rarely experienced such a big mess man.




This concludes the fantastic tales of the last 3 weeks (or has it been 4?). Maybe my life isn't soo boring after all... Except for the PayPal thing, everything could be taken out of a uselessly over-dramatic movie.

See you soon, with a hopefully returned layout!
Chu, Ailing