Monday, 5 November 2012



Just came home from watching SKYFALL and felt very inspired to write a short post about it!

Actually, I hate starting new posts, because it painfully reminds me of all the waiting drafts I still have and probably won't ever finish I think even the devil couldn't finish them, however badly he wanted my soul

Back to James Bond
Can I say I love Bond w/o sounding like a band-wagoning act-nerd attention whore? I didn't really like the movies tbh, but I love the character!

I just naturally feel totally attracted to teenage secret agents who have a mysterious past, are intelligent as fuck, have an indomitable will to live and incredible talent in fighting (mostly they have lost their parents at an early age, too).
James Bond, Bruce Wayne, Uchiha Sasuke, Sai,... you name them LOL
(Seraz Victoria, Sir Integra Fairbroux Wingates Hellsing, Éowyn)

I'm note quite sure why, but I find such characteres extremely fascinating
In the case of Bond, there exist books about his teenage adventures, which are a great matrix for my obsession

found on tumblr. love it

Well, I think I might like characters such as Bond so much, because my mother wanted to raise me to be a strong individual.
She succeeded more or less: I never complain (hunger, pain, etc), I always try to manage everything alone, I never let my feelings take over, I am just 100% controlled (ok maybe 99%). Also, I hate to be weak.
I'm only totally unathletic and can't stand insects

And now I ended up admiring people who are - so to say - perfect.
It's this total strength regarding whatever aspect about them that I love But above all I admire their absolute willpower.

I want to be a slick killer too!

Until recently I thought I could be able to kill people if necessary (say if my parents were mudered, I would do everything to hunt those mafiosi down and execute my deadly revenge, or in case of a Zombie Apocalypse, I'd be among the hardcore-st survival fighters,...), but after several dreams in which I didn't had the guts to do what I had to do (and 1 rl experience), I'm not so sure anymore...

Because, if dreams reveal the truth about us... then I'm too kind-heartet wtf Whereas in other people's dreams it's the opposite, they are always surprised about killing people.
The only thing I ever killed in a dream was a stupid monster, which was part of the 'safety measures' of a maximum security prison. I had to break in there in order to get my brother out Very exciting dream, but I woke up too early wtf

Maybe I'm weak and I don't like it.

Anyway, it's raining, raining, raining right now and I just love to site here, beneath my window (which acts as a great drumhead for the raindrops, while my whole room is the sound box) listening to the rain and write about things which are in my head.

Ah~ I wish I were James Bond, or at least one of his bitches, so my life would be more exciting

Btw, I think that Walter C. Dornez from Hellsing is named after Bond's Walther, because Walter also makes firearms for the Hellsing Organization, especially custom guns for Alucard (which look nothing like the Walther).

Sir Integra Hellsing is a 22-year-old member of the Protestant Knights, the leader of the Hellsing Organization, and the current master of Alucard. Integra has a very collected attitude, rarely allowing her emotions to get in the way of business. However, she is sometimes prone to bouts of anger. [...]she values her duties to protect the United Kingdom, its Queen, and the Anglican Church above everything else. For her, failure is not tolerated, especially her own. She runs the Hellsing Organization with charisma and patriotism, and she is one of the few people who can stand up to the force of Alucard's personality and command his respect.

And I guess it's wrong to be disappointed by one's inability to kill people , but hey, it's because I'm too kind

cold killer greetings,
Chu, Ailing

P/S: Oh I forgot!

My birthday is in exactly a week, so everybody must think of nice presents for me ja?
はい、は~い、that's it!

1 comment :

  1. just dropping by! Love your blogskin!