Thursday, 24 June 2010

Flower Party/ Rock.

Last Love - Miliyah Kato

I remember someone of TVXQ saying this in some trivial vid on youtube, so just imagine Yunho'd have said this to you and then it sounds less shitty, ok?

Yes, I'm back from the football world of Germany~ J/K.
Have not watched one full match! Of neither country!

In case you are interest, I'm cheering for South Kreah and Japan!
And Germany won't win anyway, so don't be so enthu ppl!

And to that stinky deformed kid who cmted last time:
Whatever you say~
I have been quite busy shopping the last few weeks!

But don't be sad anymore, my fan!
Your net victim came back to you with lots of spoils to cheer you up!
This time I have sth nice for you to read! Please don't be sad anymore!

PWND! victim~

I don't know how much money I spent this month, but I think 600€ are not exaggerated.

Firstly, my mom sent me out with a few 10000000000000€ to get some clothes for Nice.
I should mention that my parents are totally in favor of the Vivi style!
Which means, something girly, romantic, pastell colors, dresses, flowers, etc

If I hadn't bought such kind of clothes, she'd have killed me!

After that I bought a Samantha Thavasa bag!
Samantha Thavasa !!!!
Never dreamt of having such a gorgeous bag! When I first saw them in Vivi, I immediately fell in love with them!
They are just totally gorgeous!

I love them!

Then I bought some Fila Big Bang shoes for J., which weren't exactly cheap and well, doesn't really, count but my mum bought me then two other dresses!

And I have to tell you about one dress!
Chinatsu, Miwa and I went to some boutique at the outskirts of the city centre.
I told them that my mom had a dress put aside for me, which I needed to take a look at and could buy if I wanted.
It's size is actually a bit too big for me, but it looked so cute that I still tried it on and decided that it was ok, so I would take it.
While standing in front of the mirror, Miwa make a joke about saying that the dress looks like it costs 100€ or so and I just said it costs 160€.

Both of them freaked out when hearing that, saying that I couldn't buy such a expensive dress, if I only find it ok. I tried to assure them that I really like it, which just got me sth like I wouldn't even buy it, if I really liked it!

So what, they told me my mom was crazy and that it's a careless way to tell with money!

Which is kind of true. I'm actually not a person that carelessly throws money after things, in fact I'm quite stringy, but some things are just worth it!
But I shall think more about it, when I'm spending so much money the next time.

Now, to the pictures I promised you!

Friday, 18 June 2010


I wanted to blog, then close the tab again.

No I decided to bother you again with a few lines of nonsense!

Ms Kim Hoang is pregnant! Ok was.

WTF! The picture looks like she got a huge tumor?

I honestly have absolute no clue what she fucking did with her body while taking this shot!
But I looks like she's embracing her tumor right?

Well, the funny thing is that, this pic has been a part of her header like forever and it doesn't show her being pregnant, but~ sth like embracing a tumor.

This is her being pregnant:

Maybe, you wonder why suddenly this post, am I really still harping on her?

I check her website out every few month and it's really funny to see, how she totally didn't change at all .

Ok, this pic is 5 months old, but that's only because I couldn't find any newer pic of her face!

Anyways, her kid is a boy and without meaning that she isn't a good mother: what a poor boy!

Hopefully she'll change her appearance before he has develloped a real consciousness (?)
I think it would desvastating to me, if my mother would look like this!

I think it's the duty of a mother to have a more or less discreet outer appearance.
Idk, why. I guess I'm conservative, but do you think a responsible mother should walk around like a bitch (I have nth against eccentric fashion) and party all night long?


Also, he will be damned spoiled!
And that is like the worst thing parents can do!
It isn't just that their kid sucks balls later at kindergarten and school, that he's pestering the other kids or that he's going to be a pure useless nuisance for fellow humans and a punishment to society and humankind in general (I meam, who need fucking egoistic people around? Just go, die!), their own parents will sooner or later so regret that their kid is spoiled.
But it will be too late by then.

Also, mostly those parents are too inconsistent and just suck at parental sense to re-educate their kids (which would be difficult enough if they were pro-parents already).
And they are also, too blind to see that their kid is spoiled. Somehow essepcially Vietnamese ppl tend to spoil their kids and don't want see it.

So, let your kids tyrannize you people. It's your fault anyway.

And last but not least, ignoring the fact that I hate her, that her taste of fashion is disgusting and that she spends money on mediocre bags,
she IS ugly, right?

Not normal looking, really ugly one!
Even for Vietnamese ppl!

Ok, that's it.
Whoa, posting her pic always disfigure my blog to a totaly eyesore xD

Chu, Ailing

Pics ninjad from her offical website

Thursday, 10 June 2010

Stop a moment. 時 を止めて.

I'm going to make my threat from the post before the post before (#&%$#<#$%&/) real !

This subject started to buzz around my head some months ago maybe, and took shape some days ago.

It's gonna be LOVE!
My name!

First of all, it's not really a subject I should talk about.
Everyone who knows me, knows that I'm totally hating love .

I make fun of it, don't tolerate couple's behaviour, can't understand it and boys are so uninteresting for me .

I'm laughing out of the most romantic and touching movie scenes.
(I remember yelling Come on, get yourself ran over! while watching some desperate women walking on a street , when suddenly some fast car drove towards her (some scene in The Notebook), it got me shocked and incredulous gazes from Angelababy)
Most times people react like that if I comment on any love related issues.

It's funny~

Whenever the other girls are looking forward to watch the newest love drama, I'm just kinda ruining their expectations, by naming all the unlogical facts about it.
Or saying that the guy is ugly.
Or just make Tsk

Love is ridiculous for me!

At least in movies.

Although, I don't really want to believe it, I guess that my parents attitude towards love more or less influenced my attitude towards it. (No my mother is not like Domyouji's mother LoL)

You know, having Asian parents means that you aren't allowed to have a boyfriend before you marry.
Sth like this.

I grew up, living with this rule, I was bound to live after this rule and maybe as time passes - unlike the fellow Asian kids - I had to internalize it.

This sounds like I was traumatized by my parents now, but I think it isn't like this. At least not only.

Normally, especially if you are a teenager, you absolutely want a boyfriend, so one could think that deep deep deep inside my cold heart, something, something in me wants a boyfriend and is totally against my parents' will .

So not!!!

I have tested myself often enough and thought about it:
I totally want no boyfriend!

Even if some day the hottest guy in town would (as strange as it sounds) fall in love with me and beg me to go out with him: いえ No!

Totally not!
I know he's handsome and every girl would die to go out with him, but - except that my love belongs to TVXQ - I absolutely don't want to stress myself by sticking to another human!

I have enough problems on my own!

And also where to take the time for him?
I mean I shop the web, I blog, I daydream, I got school somemore?

Too egoistic to share my life with someone as engaging as a boyfriend!
Also I feel that I love my freedom more than the idea of having such a person.

Of course TVXQ, FTI and several Japanese actors are THE exceptions.
I would marry them at once (if they'd ever ask me that is~ )

So, I can say, without having to lie to myself:
I don't want a boyfriend.

Of course, once you are really in love with someone, the whole world looks different, but that's another story!
I don't want to fall in love! (with someone normal, got a celeb crush already)

But, who knows how my future looks like!
Right now, the thought of being a virgin with 30 years, doesn't scare me.

It is of course unnormal, but if it's one's deep-hearted decision, I think it's ok.
Because, what if a woman just don't want to bind herself to someone?

I said, that it's my absolutely certain will to have no boyfriend, but I also want to say, that I decided to give up on finding one as well .

Hahas ♥. Does that sound shocking?

I said that I don't go out that often, so where should I find one? In school I think I look like a ghost mostly (because I need 5min in the bathroom every morning).

Most important, I don't have the looks.

Yes, I gave up (without remorse or the like) on finding a boyfriend, because of my looks.

We girls all start to try to improve our looks at some point of time in our lives. Including me.
Suddenly we care about hair styles, clothes, weight and make-up. (Make-up - not me)

Most girls change totally during their puberty. When looking at old pictures they look ugly sometimes, unstylish, plump, totally misshapen.

Some time after that, they have changed more or less into fashionable young women.
Most girls, I'd say, became more feminine and prettier. Their features just got mature and solid somehow as they grow up.
Developping a sense of fashion which harmonizes with their life and feelings is also a part of this.

Of course, a few girls also don't suceed in finding their own style as fast as others or never manage to.
Some still are in the period of finding themselves and expressing their personality through a matching outward appearance.

I'd say that I have more or less completed this task, but that doesn't mean that you're pretty in the end at all.

I'm not (really).

At some point of time, you come to terms with your appearance and the parts you don't like about it or you resign yourself to it.

Then, given some event, you start to dislike yourself again and think about, why you can't change e.g. your skin and again you start to try out multiple peelings, creams, make-up and food supplements, etc.

After some time you again, realize that it's impossible to change it and face up to whatever bothers you.

Going throw this circle, some eventually find out how to improve what they wanted, some truly come to terms with it and some will stay discontented for the rest of their lives.

As for me, I belong to the 3rd group.

Unless I don't get a few plastic surgeries, I think nothing can help me.

But I decided, to ignore whatever bothers me (so actually it's a mixture of 2 and 3).
It's not really worth it (and actually I don't want bf, remember?)

Along ignoring these, comes the ignoring/ giving up on boys decision.
Or better, giving up on boys is a more or less unavoidable consequence.

I'm saying more or less, because of I course I'm aware of the fact that there a enough - even handsome, rich guys (ok maybe not rich) - who don't bother about a girl's appearance, but about personal qualities and I should'nt give up now, because someday I will surely find a man who truly loves me , but fuck those.

That happens to some super ugly chick, but not to some average punter like me (PWND!)

J/K, just as if, yah?
It's kinda like believing that Jaejoong comes to marry you~

Possible, but... naaahhh~

So please, don't think that I'm desperate and just try to cover it with some logical explanation, I'm totally - as mentioned above - saying this witout having to lie to myself.

I don't have the looks, I don't want a boyfriend.

Actually, it's also my selfishness which caused this decision, because I'm really too lazy to give much about how I go to school.

As I said 5min in the bathroom every morning.
Peeing, tooth brushing, combing my hair - not even tieing it up or anything, just tooo crazy lazy.

I said that I have gone throw those two processes of hating and tolerating oneself, yes.

But I never seriously tried to improve how I look.

I have several peelings at home, which my mom uses up, I have creams, which I don't apply, because they are already 5 years old and so on.
I buy cheap make-up, because the next time I'm going to use it, it's done for anyways.

Just too goddamn lazy.

So, みんな, that's my oppinion on love.

I know it's odd, but I'm feeling comfortable with it.
It's good, that I made up my mind about this, kinda reassuring yourself and giving you the feeling that you are free (and can spit every beau right in his face!)

Whenever you meet new people and you're talking about boys, I can say,
I don't want any boyfriend lah!
No, I never got one, so what? They are all losers anyway! Tsk~

And totally feeling ベスト !!!

That's unfortunately only my imagination.
I've never talked about boys really.

And, actually people should be discreet enough to not bother others with their love life.

I don't know why I wrote this.
Partly, because I wanted to note down in cold print how I feel about this just for myself. So that I can see it, kinda.

But also to all those, hopeless ugly girls out there, who are totally desperate about finding a bf.

To show them with my example, you don't need one and actually you don't want one, lah!

Srsly, I'm not telling everyone to give up on bf, because you realize that you're ugly lah- just showing you how minimal your chances are xD

It's that, it's not bad to have no boyfriend everyone.
You don't need to force yourself into it.
That's stupid and you better realize it now.

Anyways I will write about my ideal husband some other time and maybe about personal beauty.

Chu, Ailing

Friday, 4 June 2010

The colors of your love.

When today me and J went to the super market to prepare us for todays dinner and the whole weekend lieing before us, we admired the wonderful wheather.

It was (still is) super sunny, warm, but not too warm and everything was bright.
People were riding bikes or sitting on banks, just talking to each other.

We decided to finish our job quickly to get home again as fast as possible.

J: How could you possibly ride your bike on a day like this? The most supid people are probably those who ride their bikes along the river now.
A: No, the most stupid people are those, who go inline-skating along the river right now.
J: No, the most stupid people are those, who go inline-skating while pushing their baby carriage.
A: ...
J: No, the most stupid ones are those who go jogging and got this retarded new lead/leash* (from Decathlon) to bring their dogs along.

Anyways, I had a funny dream tonight.

A. and me were exchange students in Korea!
The class was super strange, I think like the class in Hana Yori Dango.
Anyways, I can't remember if I could speak Korean or spoke Japanese all the time, but the boys were annoying. Especially one guy.

And I had no school uniform.
I just wore a white blouse and some skir in the colors of the school uniform (dark blue and green).
I asked A. a hundred times where she got her school uniform from and she just told me sth like her parents got them for her somehow.

Strangely enough, my parenst wouldn't do that for me, I nearly begged them to get me the school uniform, but they said my pseudo formal outfit would do more than enough.
Totally frustrating to me, becuause I felt not being a part of the school without a school uniform and maybe both me and A. were more or less outsiders because of that?
Well I more than her, since I was the person who had the wrong clothes.

So one day, we should all sing something in class.
My cousin (Hah?!) wanted to be the 1st one and I desperately wanted to know what he wanted to sing. I screamed, 'What are you going to sing?', 'Don't sing anything Korean, please!', 'I'll kill you if you sing anything Korean', 'Hoi, are you listening, what are you going to sing?'
He totally ingored me and just said. 'Teeyeng' (i.e. Taeyang).
I panicked and begged him not to sing anything Korean, in the end he sang sth from G-Dargon, which was Japanese (a mixture of Heartbreaker and I can breathe). Phew!

He would've totally embarassed me, if he sang anything Korean (because correct Korean pronounciation is impossible lah!). And I was already a totaly victim (Opfer xD) at that school.

Some other stuffs happnened at a department store, which I forgot by now!

Well, the dream partly reflects bits of the plot of Hana Yori Dango, which I'm watching right now!
It's really on of the best. And fuck the Korean version, will never watch lah!

Everytime I watch this and think of Domyouji's change, I think of what a wonderful thing love just is or so (not that, but kinda).
The fact that he was this bully boy and changed because of her, is somehow really a miracle.

You might think that it's idiotic, to praise those things, since in Doramas, these unrealistic changes are common and just a cheap feature to make the movies more attractive. You're right.
Plus actually, I love Domyouji's Almighty Me attitude more than his good boy-a lifestyle.
But it's still fascinating.

Aii~ I sound like a drama addict, which I'm not.
I never watched any of these Cry doramas and never will.

By the way I watched the Hellsing OVAs at the same time (strange combination, huh?)
I love the totally weird relationship between Integra and Alucard.

Hopefully, they won't disappoint their fans and Hellsing Ultimate will really come out this year!

Whatever, after years of no-pics, here are some eye candies for you!