Tuesday, 22 July 2014


超跑女神 - 周杰倫
Day 3

I think on day 3 we might have ventured to Chinatown?
I bought a random Hello Kitty on a toilet who moves her had up and down reading a newspaper or something. Thought it would be kinda of nice to put at your bathroom
Since it was the 7th month according to lunar calendar many people burn heaven money (don't know how it's called correctly) for the dead.

But generally, Chinatown is pretty boring. I think A. bought a pair of cheap slippers for her father and we found shorts which were so plastic, you could actually fold them so they get a crease like plastic bag HAHA

Maybe it was on this day that we were in this small shop which was kinda u-shaped (but upside down), means items are placed along 3 walls and in the middle of the shop.
I was inside looking at some DVDs I think when another guy entered. I don't know what exactly is the problem with my brain, but as I was standing there, I suddenly found myself trapped between the cashier guy standing at the back (the vertical part of the U) and the entering guy who entered at the same branch of the U I stood at.
The thought that the entering guy might close in on me anytime kinda terrified me. So I panicked and rushed out like mad! But not the long way, because I didn't want to pass the cashier (!!) but I directly ran past the entering guy (which is actually more stupid, since when I was 'afraid' of them, why did I risk body contact?

I didn't mean to be so obvious but once outside, A. burst out laughing and asked, 'What was that?! The entering guy's look on the face read 'Am I that disgusting?!''
Ok so I kind of overreacted... Til now I remember his red tank shirt lah...... I am weird....

We look see look see somemore and nearly lost our hearing looking at 10000s of Ghibli DVDs in a Chinese mall were they blasted away Chinese opera.

During our pool time we saw this really weird cloud in the night sky. It had a shimmering bright yellow 'aura' and we found it very funny to assume it has sth to do with all the dead people supposedly wander around during that time of the year.

We also used to watch a bit of You're Beautiful (never recognized Yonghwa though) and used to say '什么?' ALL the time.
Pool time was not only relaxing but also very entertaining, because there actually was a fat old angmoh who had this (Thai?) hot chick all over him. Most embarrassing sight ever! She even posed like beach vixen for him to snap pics of her! Stupid bitch, got no shame!!!

Day 4

Little India time! I actually just wanted to see Arab St, maybe buy a few beads and stuff, and Haji Ln !!!
LI is really kinda dirty and not very cool, but I bought a cute bag in one of the malls, which everyone who saw it liked!
We got lost after that and went inside this mall where they hv all kind of technical gadgets!!! I forgot it's name!

The thing about A. and me is, we always walk round and round each floor, without noticing that we past the same shop for 3 times already haha. And we did that for 8 floors this time haha!!!

Finally arrive in Haji Ln and I wasn't disappointed! I found some nice stuff, like a cute back and earrings~

I don't remember much about this day, but A. always saw guys w nice hair cut from behind and would exclaim, 'OMG hot boy!', turns out, their face all super ugly!!!

Day 5

Finally Orchard Rd time! Everytime we went Orchard, the weather was really bad!! Normally the weather in Singapore is really ok! Hot, but not so humid! Only after rain, it is unbearable!!

Orchard has many nice malls.
At the first mall something really stupid happened: I stole a tub of Japanese hair wax!!!!
I wanted to buy it for my oppa, and took it with me. We entered via this drug store and left it but were still inside the mall, so I didn't get it at first.
Only several shops later I realized that I must have stolen this tub out of the first store!!! I was terrified, cuz Singaporean law is very strict and they might jail me once for all!!!
First I tried to inconspicuously put it somewhere, but then I thought, 'hey, I stole it out of the relevant store already, so can as well take it home!' So I took it back again and stole it for good haha
Another save money thing happened: the MRT machine returned too much money haha! A. was kinda annoyed saying, today is my lucky day! First the machine give me too much money then I got the wax for free somemore hahaha

We went to Juicy Couture, where I wanted to buy a charm, but I didn't like any, so this time must buy!!!
Instead we splurged at Kinokuniya located inside Takashima!! I bought Japanese fashion magazines, a TVXQ magazine and 2 FT Island ones haha! A. bought some Kim Bum and CN Blue things I think.

After that we had kinda (after)noon tea there. Luckily we had our magazines to entertain us a little, because the service was really slow and A. got really grumpy hahaha.

We also visited a kinda goth store and more, but I can't really recall a lot.

Only that at Far East Plaza we bought some v cheap tee at the basement haha. All had this bold prints that were kinda Korean style back then! At Far East Plaza also was this store called Nana Rêve De La, which sold the cutest fairy key/lolita stuff! I bought an awesome cardigan and super cute tee!
There's another one of their stores somewhere, but I forgot where (at Wisma Atria?)

Really there are so many god damn awesome malls in Singapore, just thinking of them makes me drool!!!

Day 6

I think we spent this way just randomly at shopping malls, among them my favourite one, Plaza Singapura. I don't kow why, but one reason for sure is; they also have a Comics Connection!!! (that's the same as the kpop store from White Sands). I didn't really buy much, but still the shop itself is heaven!!!

Had my first and only Thai food there, and it was some sort of chicken satay thing? (I know that's Malaysian) and I didn't like it at all, because I hate all grilled meat haha.

And yeah so much about Day 5, I don't know why my memory is so bad haha.
But don't you kow this feeling when something is so fun, exciting and marvellous that you can't remember anything? Well that happnend, but the best is yet to come haha

I bought a pair of docks at a fancy store located at a funny Orchard Central.
It was again a super nasty humid day and Orchard Central our rescue!
This mall has ridiculously long escalators! The cool thing while you slowly ascend from the street insdie the mall it gets cooler and cooler and you feel more and more blissful haha

A funny thing happened when I we were shopping there.
I wanted to buy a cool backpack. And there was this store selling a few cool ones, but I was undecided so we left.
For the Doc's store. I was going to try one pair on and asked the staff guy if he had socks. He disappeared behind a curtain and emerged with one single tennis sock. Tbqh I was a bit suspicious about it, but it felt completely unused and non-sweaty hahaha. I tried on one boot and asked for another one, since must try on both feet right? Haha
He disappeared again and came back with another sock haha
Well, I bought a pair at the end and til now A. keeps mocking me about that guy providing me his dirty socks which he just slipped of to give them to me! CANNOT BE OR HIS FEET ARE MADE OUT OF STONE LA hahaha they were really 100% dry haha which I think is impossible in Singapore !^^

Then we returned to the backpack store. I couldn't decide between a white canvas one and a white fake leather one. So A. asked the staff guy, who was apparently very sick.
He act very cool and just pointed (arm outstretched) at the leather one. So I got that haha

In Singapore Mc Donald's has this really cool sundae, which is dipped into chocolate sauce and after that hardens instantaneously! And super cheap... like 1SGD only haha.

Then a very very fateful thing happaned.
Ok so normally we will rot around at the bridge from 10pm to maybe 1am. On this day somehow we were earlier, cuz A. somehow decided to go earlier.
We sat on the bridge and tried to spot ikemen as usually.

So this two guys happen to pass, once was wearing black (black guy/ BG) so rather unobtrusive, but his friend wore this striped thing (guy in striped/ GIS), he had a kinda more 'special hairstyle', back then I think the sort of 'jaejoong'/ very fringy hairstyle was cool. So I was gonna point him out to A., but we were sitting both facing other directions so when I point out a guy to her she will only see his back if he pass her. So I didn't mention him (I think).

After a wile he and his friend came back. And I think this time I said to her, 'hey, this guy not bad right?' I think she agreed.
I think after that those two actually went across the bridge and past us one more time hahaha. And we saw them again.
Well, were hanging around somemore, fooling around. Like, laughing our asses of at the thought of getting one's initials tattooed on one's butt (?)

THEN, then suddenly when we were just minding our business, those two guy came approaching us and GIS asked my friend,
GIS: Hello, my name is XCVSD, can we be friends?
A: WHAT?!?! Me *shocked and couldn't believe she gave such an indignant sounding reply* BG *burst out laughing* GIS: *trembling* stutters H-hh-hello, my name is YXYCC, c-can we be friends?
Me: A!!!! (meaning, I dare you to turn him down!!!!!)
A: OKAY!!!!

And this is how it all started part 1 hahaha

Well we started to talk a bit, and they asked us where we were from. I immediately explained we were not from here to keep his hopes low (cuz it wouldn't work out, sry).
They said we look like locals or from China and asked us in return were we think they are from. Of course they were from China!! hahaha For me there is no Singaporean, everyone is Chinese or Malay or Indian haha
GIS was a bit dissapointed I think, because in fact they were not born in SGP but moved there from China haha

Well out convo was coming to an end and both already left when I felt sorry and called them back buy kinda yelling, 'btw how old are you two?'
They were 19? I explained that a few days ago we were wondering if Asians look older or younger than their age. Well in this case I must say they look older haha

They then told us they thought we might be 20+, like 23 or so?! FML, I didn't feel insulted back then, but I really wondered why a guy would approach a noona hahaha
But it was a good thing I called them back because GIS now asked for my friends e-mail for MSN (yes the good ol' MSN days haha)

After that they left and we were SUPER hyped. A group of people observed what happened and they were looking really joyful at us freaking out cuz a guy approached A. hahahaha
On this night we stayed a bit longer at the bridge to discuss things hahahaha
Well the adventure had just started!!!

Day 7

I don't know what we did on this day, but it might actually be Orchard day again. Which means that Day 6 or Day 5 can't be really right....

As for breakfast, because of our (or better A's) sleepiness, we didn't catch breakfast everyday. I get the kind of jet lag where you don't sleep at all, and are never tired! Whereas A. sleep all the time hahaha
Also the staff was very amazed by the fact that we were only two girls staying together alone haha They had us registered under Mr and Mrs, and at first didn't get that we were there without our parents haha

Anyway that evening another fateful thing happaned. I told A. that I was sure that this evening the guys might come back. But A. didn't believe it.
I said they absolutely would so we have to go to the bridge earlier again!

But in the evening we forgot about it and just anyway went to the bridge.
And we completely forgot about them haha

Then when we were just being absorbed in our crazy ideas again, they really came!!! But it took us a while to recognize them. We saw them from afar but didn't realize it was them until they already reached us.

GIS said, the e-mail A. gave him didn't work so he came to ask again, he also thought maybe she just gave him a fake address haha. How brave or whatever do you have to be to not only come up witch such a special pick-up line (Helly, my name is X, can we be friends?) but to also, come back to ask for real e-mail address after being rejected so impertinently (at least he thought so, but A. gave her real e-mail)
Anyway, after that they decided they would sit with us at the bridge, but we sat back to back and didn't exchange a word hahaha. Everyone just minding their own business/ convo.
Only after a while the guys asked us what we planned to do for the evening. We actually wanted to have a drink at the Bamboo Bar of the Forbidden City complex located right across the bridge.
We also talked about phones. BG had an iPhone back then I think, and I was lamenting about how touch screen really sucks (back then touchscreen was still kinda new?). He wanted to prove me wrong and asked for my e-mail to type out for me to see (kinda elegant I acknowledge that, can still see A's wide grin who saw what happened). My phone also proved to be v interesting, because it was the super awesome LG Lollipop 2!!!!! (I still love you!!!)
We also managed to finally understand GIS's name: Donny!!!!!
Since we both have never heard of that name before we never really got it.

Well, then maybe around 11pm we went to have our drinks.
But at first we went to stop at this Turkish iceman and Donny asked A if she wanted to hv ice cream. Greedy A. agreed which was her doom haha.
Because this special iceman tricks his customers by kinda baiting them with the ice cream, but never giving it to them. He puts the cone onto a long rod and moves it around for you to catch!
After a few tries of course you get kinda upset haha.

Well, then we finally went to have our drinks!
Donny didn't drink anything with alcohol, cuz he gets sleepy, so A. ordered non-alcoholic, too.
Anway, everything was still a bit awkward, because we couldn't understand their Singaporean accent too well and we hardly knew each other. So when GS's drink had a weird taste I offered him my lemon slice to kinda neutralize the taste?!
Then suddenly A. force her orange slice on Donny hahahahaha

We even ask one of the waiters to snap a picture for us xD
Then somethings really stupid(?) happened cuz it was pay time! The waitress arrived with the bill inside the folder and before we could really react, BG already whipped out his credit card, put it into the folder and the waitress rushed away.
I jumped up, ran after her and told her that we wanted to pay separately. BG hurried after me to tell the waitress that everything is OK, but (dunno if it was the alcohol or I just weird), I pointed back to were we sat and really yelled 'You go back! Go back!!!'
A. and Donny laugh like mad and the waitress also really amused!
In the end I didn't manage to win this fight, although I was quite determined.

But this was only the beginning my dilemma.
After that the guys decided we should go see a movie together. Which sounded funny, spontaneously going to the movies at midnight! We went to Cineleisure at Orchard and watched Grown Ups.
You know their trick is to distract us while on of them goes paying~ We were trying to get our hands on plush toys with this claw crane machine. Then BG returned with popcorn and four drinks. Even though I say I don't want anything!!!
The movie was really hilarious and we had a super awesome time!! Although I was freezing to death because of the aircon! And because of the drinks.
At first I refuse to drink, but then A. said, 'if they buy and you don't drink they will have bought for nothing!' 'Okay I sip a bit'

After that we cabbed back to Clarke Quay and by that time I was shivering and I wondered if Singaporeans even know what shivering is haha

But the night didn't end here! We went to have pizza! We ordered a gigantic one and beer (for BG and me at least).
I didn't manage to finish my share and forced BG to eat!

Also I dared them to pay again! I was totally prepared to call for the bill myself and pay, when the unpredictable happened: due to shift change the waiter came by himself and asked us to pay! I was caught by surprise and of course who is faster?
A guy brandishing his credit card or a foreigner girl trying to find her wallet inside her handbag and having to distinguish between all the strange notes?
I was distressed hahahaha and had another good reason to force BG to eat my share hahaha

After that we finally went back to the hotel to sleep, but decided we would meet up tomorrow again.
I couldn't sleep at all!!!! I kept thinking about all the money spent on us and wanted to talk to my parents to ask them what to do!!!

Honestly, I felt like a prostitute who takes money and such things in exchange for company and kindness....

Monday, 21 July 2014

Best Days

Let It Rain - Olivia Ong
I think I just need to blog to distract myself from my certain death (again inspired by xiaxue's early posts).
This is a memory of my most happy most memorable moments! Without further ado

I managed to convince A. who has just graduated to join me go to Singapore! Her mother allowed just like that, we went booking, were super lucky an ended up getting this awesome hotel swissôtel Merchant Court paying a fraction of the actual price.

On the day of our departure our mother's went with us to the airport. Our adventure started!!
The first funny thing to happen was when we checked-in and the guy asked us if it was our first time flying.
'First time flying alone, not first time.'
'Ok, then boarding time is 11.45'
'In which direction is the gate?'
'Is is there *points somewhere*'
'Ok, then we will go there by 11.45'
'No, start walking earlier, be there by 11.45'
(this was a joke, I can't recall it properly)

We still had an massive amount of time, so we sat down at a café. The waitress was alone and she was super late with bringing our food, mine was frozen somemore and so my mother started complaining. My friend and A were so embarrassed, but my mother wouldn't stop and the waitress was also very bitchy one.

Anyway we finally boarded, flying with fabulous Singapore Airlines. I don't remember much about the flight, except they had kpop and Asian dramas (not that I watch, but I think my friend watch).
She was super excited and kept saying 'omg we are flying to Singapore', while I was just 'meeh' hahaha

Upon our arrival, we were confused about customs declaration and also didn't know where to go. An auntie asked us but we were just following everybody else, so we couldn't really help her either.
We made it in the end and an Indian woman asked us if we needed a cab and showed us the way. When we heard the noise outside, I said, 'this must be wind'. A. said, 'No, this is rain stupid!' so we asked the Indian lady if this was actually rain and when we stepped outside there was a monsoon going on outside or so. It was so loud, that at first I couldn't believe the noise came from rain.

We got a cab to our hotel and had a cute guy check us in (spotting cute guy contest started here!).
A. hold the talks, and I was just listening. When the finished, I was like 'did you get that you agreed for a queen size bed and not two beds?'
'I did what?'
*sighs* 'We would like to have two beds please!'

Unfortunately we could only check in at 12, so we had 6h (!!) to spend elsewhere (arrived at 6 in the morning). At first we lounged around the lobby, then being the genius that I am I suggested to my friend we should check out the hotel and wander around. We entered a lift that happened to open right in front of us and just went up. Of course the hallway was very unspectacular. So we wanted to go back to the lobby.
Unfortunately, the lifts downwards only work with a card. So we had to take the staircase. We nearly ended in the kitchen or so, which would be very embarrassing so we quickly run to the 2nd floor. (stupid actions start here!)
The 2nd floor was the floor with access to the pool area, but since it was raining so hard we could only sit inside and watch the staff outside cleaning the place. I bet they were wondering about was we were doing, sitting there for 2h or so.

Finally we decided it was time to explore outside a bit. We managed to get into a lift with a guest who went to first floor, so we didn't need a card. Right opposite of the hotel was a small shopping mall, but no shops were open yet (it wasn't 10am) so we just walked around, driving up escalators (some that went up several floor at once which was really confusing haha) and even entered a lift, which would directly take us to the highest floors, where the executives have their office. Again, stupid action.

We also explored outside a bit, because it was right next to Singapore river.
It wasn't so cool to me, because my stomach hurt ever since on the plane. I don't remember if we really took a look at the shops eventually, but when it was about 11+ I decided we should go back to the hotel see if our rooms might be ready.

They were and we entered our fabulous room! And went to sleep asap. During the ours of our sleep the staff continued to ring at our door to see if everything was ok, it was damn annoying haha.
Til now I have trauma from that exact ring tone! We awoke around 4pm I think. I dragged my friend along to a fan meeting of CN Blue near Little India.
I had a vague idea of who CN Blue was, but my friend was completely clueless. Since we arrived early, we went shopping a bit (I bought a black, white polka dot leggings which I wore once and already got a ladder) then we went to join our fans to catch a glimpse at CN Blue. Our place was very bad since security keep telling exactly us to move cuz we were blocking the way.
BUT in the end, they had to open another space (which was blocked before) because there were just to many spectators (even old men, who was just a space-consuming sensationalist.
So, CN Blue. Tbqh, I didn't like them back then, I only know that the bassist and drummer were exceptionally un-handsome, and maybe I knew about 'You're Beautiful'.
So seeing them irl just seemed to confirm my thoughts. The only one I recognized was Jungshin xD.
And the only handsome guy, was a staff member haha. Nevertheless, we stood there to stare at them, got pushed around by fans and even went to stare at the 1st row.
In the end our knees hurt so much from tiptoeing for such a long time that we simply had to squat down right there.

That day we didn't do anything special any more, since I thought I had to go visit my school on the next day! So I think we went to bed early! (Note: We arrived on Sat, the next day was Sun)

Day 2: Sunday

We got up and the breakfast at swissôtel is really nice! Got everything you want! I know that A. always got the same juice, cuz she kept forgetting how it taste! (Not that good haha)
We cabbed to the school and the driver us ask 'Today is Sunday, what do you want there?'. Smart ass that I am I replied 'today is Monday', completely unfazed and cold.
The cap driver didn't say anything after that.

At the school (my appointment was at 10 I thin, but I was too early, maybe 9) we searched for a way to enter, but there was none, except for a revolving door which only led people out, but not in.
We walked around the whole campus several times, always joined buy a topless guy who jogged along the same route. The only other entrance we found was a gap in the hedge leading to the sports area. We peeked inside and only saw topless guys bettering each other in soccer and the guy, but didn't dare to go in.
In the meantime and after the way too obsolete check with my phone, I had realized that it was indeed Sunday and we ere one day too early. I insisted we might at least check out the office of the person I was too meet, so were still strolling around the place.
I think the jogging guy started to become suspicious and indeed we looked like two girls who tried to stalk a senpai on his free-time doing manly sports.

In the end we gave up and tried to get back to town. Only that we couldn't call cab and there was no MRT around. We asked a Chinese Muslim lady about how to get a bus ticket and she explained that we could buy one on the bus. We managed to get to the next MRT station which was the one at White Sands.
It was about to open and we strolled around a bit! Luckily, since it is has one of the big stores selling kpop merch!!!
I got several FT Island posters (couldn't really find anything I think!) Another treasure of this place is this drop-dead-amazing hair dresser!!! But more about that on day 3!

At the MRT station A. bought one magazine with CN Blue on the cover only to have something related to them (haha).

I don't remember much about the rest of the day, but I think we walked around Clarke Quay, and saw this several 100m long queue outside ZOUK. It was only afternoon and to us really a ridiculous sight!! (we were such KIDS back then).
Our day normally ends with a dip in the pool and I think we already started the 'tradition' or hanging out at the Canning Lane bridge, having silly talks, judging unknown people and trying to spot eyecandy!
On of the nights a guy seemed to celebrate his 16th birthday, but he look way older. So we were wondering if Asians normally look older or younger than their age. Normally look younger right?

Day 3: Monday

The same start as yesterday, only that this time I met my liaison at school! We entered we cars normally drive in and got name tags like backstage passes.
After that we again went to White Sands shopping mall. This time A. decided to get her hair cut!! She wanted to do it anyway and this shop was just there so why not!
Hair style-wise it was the best decision ever. The guy (a real professional) worked some magic there! It took him 3 hours to cut her hair while wet, while dry and then while throwing strand of her hair around to see how they fall and cut accordingly to perfect his masterpiece!
Comparing with standard hair cuts it was a absolutely difference game. Even with just the cut itself it looked so stunning one would drool. After that he and a SHINee kinda guy styled her hair.
Both of them were relatively clueless about English so it was funny to talk to them, but they were absolutely nice! Anyway they started doing curls, cuz A. (clever as she was, wasn't listening to their questions again) so midway when she realized, they had to straighten hair hair again!!!

Initially I didn't want to do anything to my relatively short hair, cuz I didn't think it would make much of a difference, but since her hair was so sooo good after that I changed my mind.
Of course my result wasn't as grand as hers, but still I am convinced that it must have been amazing haha I got curls, but it might me feel very uncomfortable, because my hair is really weird and my bangs looked like crap without being properly styled (which the hair dresser couldn't know) so I had to center part it.

After that we went to Raffles City which was pretty boring.
Except for two guys who were kinda annoying. One was an Italian guy promoting hair straighteners. Since my hair really made me feel uncomfortable, I thought I'd use this opportunity to straighten my hair again and had this guy doing it for me. The feeling of this guy flimsily and cluelessly going through my hair was super disgusting!!
So even though my hair was back to straight I felt 'eughh' and when the guy asked if we'd buy one of his products we said 'no, we didn't need one'
He asked how we get our hair straight elseway if not with a straightener. 'We are Asians', I replied, 'our hair is naturally straight'
How obvious is that little piece of information please?

We had lunch at Mc Donald's that day and then decided to had back on foot. We walked past this Mc Donald's maybe 4 times, before we found the right direction and actually managed to find the hotel haha.

On one of these nights we lounged at one of the millions bars around Clarke Quay and had a Lychee Martini.

Thursday, 17 July 2014

Lessons そよぎ

soyogi - FT Island
Yesterday I learnt an important lesson.
But first, today is one of those incredible sunny days, that I didn't had the chance to learn to appreciate the last few years. In my room at home it gets really hot really fast, so I had one more reason to hate sunny days, other than hating brightness and hotness in general.
In my new room bright sunny days don't heat up the whole place so it is much easier to appreciate.
The whole apartment is very bright actually, and the kitchen looks especially friendly and sunny so I like it!

I cleaned and mopped the whole apartment today - involuntarily. I planned to flood the sink with detergents and water (to clean it without cleaning it), but forgot about it while I vacuumed. The result is that the bathroom and half the hall were flooded.
I was really worried that the neighbour from downstairs would come and ask about some water damage - the costs would finally kill me. Luckily I managed to deal with the masses of water and wiped the whole floor! I packed the whole place, washed the dishes, showered and now that everything is clean, it feels really comfortable to stay here.

Now, I don't know what to do. Since I'm dieting I can't eat (which would be my 1st choice to do whenever I'm bored). I really need to get a grip. Sometimes I am eating quite much and it doesn't affect my weight at all, sometimes I'm eating not soo much and end up with a higher weight....
I went food shopping today and my haul consists of: blueberries, bananas, buttermilk (for smoothies), two instant soups and a yoghurt (cherry buttermilk). I was afraid I might freak out if I don't have an extra safety food, so I bought the yoghurt ㅋㅋ
I don't want to eat yet though, I'm really clueless about what to do. It is also a tad to bright, so staring at this screen makes my eyes really tired~ I'm not even sitting at my desk, which is next to the window, but on my bed. It's a completely new experience for me to work (with my laptop) on my bed. I'm a desk person and before moving here and seeing my roommate sometimes studying on her bed, I have never even thought of that ㅋ
Anyway then I remembered I said I'd blog and yesterday really happened sth that I want to remember for the rest of my life, hence I must write it down.

I was supposed to post some documents by Tuesday. Of course I procrastinated and didn't made it to the post office on time on Sat (in my defence, I googled that it'd be open until late). So I mailed all the stuff on Monday by express, so it would arrive fo sho on Tuesday. As Tuesday came I tracked my letter, and lo! it hadn't moved one inch.
So I contacted the post office to check where my letter actually was, because often their tracking lags behind. After several forwarding and redirection - by now it was 8.45pm - my letter had finally moved, it departed from where I had posted it.
I kept tracking it til 3am the next day to see if it might have arrived in time (before Tue midnight) but as I found out on Wednesday morning, it hadn't even arrived at the right town. Again I mailed every possible people from the post office and the people who were to receive my letter, explaining my situation, but of course nobody replied.
Finally my letter arrived - at 11.35am. Had to wait until 1pm before I could phone the bureau. And then at one number the person didn't even care to pick up and at the other I had to call several times, before no one was busy and then wait somemore until someone picked up. It was a young-ish sounding guy who just kept telling me that it was impossible to do sth about the letter, that he was sorry, but couldn't help me at all. I swear for half an hour I begged, cried and did all the dramatic things I could think of - I couldn't soften his heart. Eventually he explained the rules again and hung up. I was literally devastated.
I told my friend about it, she told me that it couldn't be, that they had to make an exception since it was the fault of the delivery guys and that I should try everything.
I don't know how I thought of it, but I successfully googled the numbers of each employee of the office. I directly called the manager and he picked up immediately. I started to say that I had a problem with my letter when he already asked me how he could help me. After explaining my situation, he sympathize with me very much (stupid post office people/ how much you pay ah?). Then he finally ask if I had a proof, I told him I had an apology of them. So he gave me his e-mail address, and I forward the apology to him. He wanted the receipt of posting (because of some legal reasons), too, which luckily I still had and then told me that everything was gonna work out! I was so so relived and happy! Against all odds I had worked it out!!
And finally, what did I learn from this story?
Firstly, never give up, try everything (many thanks to my friend) and 2ndly know your rights!!

If I had known about there being a law regarding this date and that a mistake by the delivery company was an exception, I wouldn't have bothered to put on an act calling the first guy, I'd straightforward say 'you know what? fuck you I know my rights, so do what I'm telling you to do, you midget'
The law is so important! I knew it before but never had really internalised this reality. It is much easier to fight for our rights if we know the legal background.

Oh and how about, stop procrastinating? Guess I will never learn that one~
Anyway, I wish sth v bad to happen to the first guy. Not like I want to curse him, as he just followed the rules, but I want sth happen to him that make him think~ Like karma!
E.g. his new apple product got stolen, his car broke (and he can't afford a new car) or he lost sth v special to him, or his wash machine flood his whole apartment, things like that that make him think, 'That could be because I didn't help that crying girl....naaah....(what if yes?)'

Ok, ending it here. Super long-winded and boring ㅋㅋ
Chu, Ailing

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

아직도 어두운 밤중에 비나리

Be the Light - One Ok Rock
아직도 어두운 밤중에 비나리

내 모습을 가끔 쳐다보네
한없이 애타는 나의 눈짓들
하늘이여 간절한 이 소망 또 외면할 거요

하늘에의 반짝이는 변들이

Lately I feel v much like writing prayers.

I'm dieting quite a bit. The 50kg-barrier proves to be quite tricky. I can't believe that a few weeks ago I found this very skinny and myself so v much skinnier than normally, and now I feel this is the same fat as normally.

Like, 50kg used to quite skinny feeling to me, but now it is just my same fat daily weight ㅋㅋ

Chu, Ailing x

Monday, 16 June 2014

On food and feelings

It is funny, disappointing, annoying, astonishing how things you learn at school do influence you after all.
For example, we talked about addictions and/ or mental illnesses during middle school. Everyone had to pair with someone and prepare a presentation about a certain illness for the whole class. I covered anorexia, bulimia and adiposity.
And now I'm generally very interested in (and also fascinated by) eating disorders. But I think it's also because I want to be very skinny.

Another point is that I once interned at a hospital at (in?) the ward for internal medicine. In particular we had many patients who had problems with their alimentary canal. And oh wonder, you could say that it's the most interesting topic concerning medicine for me now.
Although it is very disgusting (digestion!) - I saw a 200kg guy who had a gigantic hole in the middle of his ass idk what they did there but you could fit two fists in that hole, I've seen people with full stomata (that's an artificial anus, i.e. a plastic bag where your shit is collected instead) dropping out of the hole of their bellies or my cousin told me she saw people throwing up their own shit, hands down possibly the most disgusting aspect of medicine on living(!) humans - I still like it the most (ok that might be exaggerated).

So y'all should be careful about what you learn, you might like it later on~

More funny things! My relationship with food! Funny how it can change so fast and so extreme!
On certain days I be like, 'what does it even matter? hand me that mayonnaise bro, we gon eat like no tomorrow' and on other days, 'omgwtf this glass of water I just drank! Just this feeling of fullness already makes me sick. Fuck this bad conscience although I know that it has 0 cal! What should I do?! I will never lose weight!!'.

Now someone explain that. I wish I was more often on that water is evil- side, but it isn't granted me.
At least this speaks volumes about human psyche; we are all fragile. And it shows how easy it actually is to develop an eating disorder (not for me though, I'm still going strong ww x).
Anyway, when I first gathered some information about this topic and probably it's the same thing for most of you, too - we think it's impossible for us to stick a toothbrush down our throat or to be disgusted by the 'bloating' of a glass of water. But now I could say that these opinions change to the exact opposite from one day to an other just like that.

What I want to say is, most of our judging is based on comparisons with recent standards. We adjust our standards to current circumstances and rarely pit our deeds or thoughts against higher ideals. Examples? People who grow up in a normal environment and were friends with us now rob helpless old grannies in order to get themselves and their friends enough money to buy drugs. We used to hate smokers, but now that everyone we know kinda smokes it isn't all that bad... And so on.

We don't (always) think, 'this is the most reputable of all things, I want to be like that', but we think 'I want to be better/as good as/ only a bit worse than standard'. And if that changes our thinking changes with them.
Of course some things don't change (that easily), like killing someone. Most of us will still flinch from doing so even if suddenly a civil war wear to break out where we live. But for some, this process is happening (faster). And that is because 'everyone is doing it, so it is normal/only a bit worse if I do it, too.'
This is also how some explain why so many Germans suddenly became cruel murderers during WWII and even killed children without hesitating.
In the beginning we think it's very cruel and absolutely wrong, but then we don't think about it that often anymore, because we already have thought of everything that could be thought of this subject. And then after a while, it's the most normal thing ever. Another way is that we think about it all the time and it becomes completely normal for us because it had been in our head all the time.
Very much the same as why we don't find looking out of the window during train journeys as interesting as when we were kids anymore. All things are relative.

Well, I just wanted to share this with you, because I think many people are too sure of everything, but the reality is 'All that is certain is that nothing is certain. Not even this.'.

Chu, Ailing x x x

Sunday, 15 June 2014

To be languid

서울이 싫어졌어 - 이천원

I am watching football now that I have finished (a certain amount of) studying.
I know I said I'd study more and well, this was more (even if not much). Yesterday didn't work so well, because I went to a fair with my roommate. I haven't been for a long while and it was very entertaining. The smell of cotton candy, and all the colourful, shining signs and the typical voices advertising different attractions. I had a crêpe after a really long time.
It might be the 2nd I ever had, because I don't like sweet things at all. Especially warm ones.

Well today was study day, although lately I get up really late and thus miss half of the days anyway. That is because I fall asleep very late and hate to wake up, too. Not very cool qualities.
I'm starting to think that I have ADHD. Only one of the 99.999 things that I recently start to doubt about myself~
I find myself thinking of every and anything else to do while studying. It might be singing or checking out this site or a product or eating or going to the toilet, whatever. It's really hard to study like that. But I must learn to gain control.

I absolutely must learn to be more time-efficient. It is one of my top (out of 2) worries!

The picture was taken on Mother's Day a while ago. It was one of those days when rain and sunshine took turns with one another incessantly.
Although it looks like it was a very gloomy day I think the sun probably started to shine brightly only moments after. But it's the gloominess that I love about this picture; the rain onto that beautiful landscape and then on the left site rails, industry, anti-nature,... I also love the old dark-framed window and the flowers in the foreground which I got for my mother that morning.

I'm going to study a bit more and continue with the football match!
Chu, Ailing