Friday, 30 May 2014


You see a chair as it is. But when you burn the chair, you suddenly realize that the chair in your head did not burn or disappear.
Yoko Ono
I AM SO LAZY SO LAZY wtf is up with me~ I can't just... can't be a decent productive person AT ALL.

Anyway, here's a little something I'm kind of into. Let's make this kind of whimsical.


I mostly develop some somewhere rooted sentimental feels for things that I suddenly have an obsession for.
The very unsettling, but necessary question is: DO I GENUINELY LIKE THOSE THINGS? or is it some silly impetuous craze... (it is anyway) which I seek to justify like so:

''Do you guys feel this cold, mysterious light that those lamps emit? Since I love antagonisms I can't resist this special ambiguous imagery that comes from those shining words. So cold, yet light...
Another thing is this clean, polished look vs the messy cables or metal rack, that surround the lettering. Oh, if there's one perfect contradiction then it's tidy mess!!!
I love the colourful, Las Vegas versions, too. When I look at those I see warm summer nights, hanging out with gorgeous people just enjoying life to the fullest and also a kind of sultry-ness. Besides, I love lights in the dark.''

Well, Italian brand Seletti came up with those brilliant letters and symbols for you to set up your own message at home.
Works like a modular assembly system and let's you bring forward your inner poet.
Or in the words of Siletti

write with light
your artistic touch
revealed in neon.
light up a word, a phrase
a poem transforming it into
a living and eternal affirmation.
the new pulse of
'neon art' start here.
start thinking.

What would you write onto your walls?
I'm in dear need of a bedside lamp since I moved, but screw that I got something better!
I'd like to have something that merely plays with the sassy attitude of those lamps and at the same time hints at anything to do with 'bed' or 'sleep' while maintaining a general, neutral message.
So my ideas are


Yes, that's it already. Tbh I already bought 'xxx' cuz it was on sale, so I'm not very motivated to think about something cool anymore.
Anyway, finally a hopefully somewhat more useful bedside lamp than my salt lamp, oh how many reading times have you robbed me off? Everytime I wanted to skip through some magazines or read a book before sleeping I was redirected to my smartphone or laptop since I don't have a bright light source at the moment.
Oh and isn't it an absolutely legit upgrade of your regular fairy lights, which are just a tad too mainstream and romantic for me~ This neutral, beauty-defying aesthetics, I'm smitten!

Chu, Ailing

Thursday, 8 May 2014

Urgh I'm going crazy.
It's bed time then it's really not and I could stay awake for 3 more hours and still be able to go to school.
Then I want to check out dresses, but then really not, because I wouldn't buy one, because I have one.
Then I want to do the maths homework since forever, but I don't because I don't get it and wikipedia is a bitch.

So what do I fucking do now? /rage

This about sums up my distress at this very moment. FU
I go drink sth now and then see~

I think I will go right to the gym tomorrow after school, even if it will destroy my legs... I got certain reason to go ww
Then Friday can not go. But Saturday maybe~

Ok I really hope that it won't destroy my legs too much. So I can do my regular programme on Saturday. If not then I skip too often and have to start anew~

Monday, 5 May 2014

Wind - 明星
sry for the lack of posts the past few days... I didn't feel like blogging because I had binge days on end~
It started with last Sunday I think. I don't even dare to do my food diaries ww
But what I had on that day includes: yakisoba, curry, sake, ice cream, sandwich, MC baguette, sprite. Think that's it.

Well that alone wouldn't be so bad because I had major diarrhea the day after and EVERYTHING came out at 6am.
I then had late breakfast, went to the gym (!) and after that my whole breakfast came out again www
(the interesting thing is that I looked down the toilet bowl and it looked like I shit a bunch of flowers and grass plants HAHAHAHA sry for being gross)

That evening I had instant noodle soup, a sandwich and ice cream.

And so the days went by, today is Wednesday and I had a half-foot already~ Long time no sub, I love subway! Always reminds me of New York, where I had subs almost every day!!!

Anyway the Sunday I was talking about was completely crazy!
Namakemono-san and I started the day together. We saw a very impressive butoh dance, ate and bought a lot in between shows and on the afternoon wanted to go MC. Turns out there was no MC in this town... Seriously no MC.
It wasn't a small town. It was a bigger normal town.
So we hoped onto the train (again) went back to our town, bought MC, ate on the train like some swines (w) and came back again for the evening performance. We ended up walking through a friggin storm~
It was one of those fun and chaotic days you enjoy with friends.

What do you guys do when you sit on trains, busses, cars?
I once read an article about people unlearning to wait. The author described how noone can deal with idleness anymore. Everyone needs their smartphone, music or newspaper to keep oneself entertained.
Noone can entertain themselves with their thoughts.

I immediately agreed. Yet I find myself stacking up on Star Trek eps, a Vogue and a book before I hopped on the train earlier.
And let's not forget I also have a smartphone and MUST listen to music ALWAYS when I'm leaving the house.
I even brought stuffs to study.

Just the thought of boring myself through this trip terrified me.
Did I also dread the thoughts that might came up when I'm left with nothing but my own mind to entertain me? I don't know~

Right now I still have +half an hour to kill.
And I don't know what to do ww

But that's not really just the fault of our technical development.
Our whole society condemns waiting, we are all trained to make some from of progress every minute. That's why toddlers start to learn foreign languages and 15 year old school-leavers must never ever spend a month doing anything but studies or internships (or work and travel if you insist).
Not only that, people are constantly told to work for their dreams NOW, lose weight now, start a new hobby now, fulfil your greatest wish now....

I thought so too.
There's a line in a Naruto ending that I really love and it's more or less my life motto
Waiting is wasting for people like me

It implies that cool people don't hang around wasting their precious time like losers when they could rule the world. I can't say this whole philosophy is wrong of course.

But what I also think is that, by waiting and being forced to self-reflect we recognize and gain a lot of things.
And a lot is lost by our idea that waiting is such a waste.

That is why I think we should not hate those filler times so much and use them in a wise way instead. Embrace everything w

Do you guys like the Vogue?
I quite like it, but I find I don't really read the articles. Most of the interviewee don't interest me, even if generally I try to learn more about other persons.
I enjoy reading lifestyle things more~

Even the fashion part is boring to me. Instead of bringing stuffs about trends the Vogue follows more or a personal theme.
I don't condemn that in general, it's more that sometimes the themes are not really meeting my taste. Whereas trends would still be interesting or maybe useful to read as at least they are news.

That's why I think it's a waste of money to buy the Vogue (for me).
I should read all the interviews to give my purchase some meaning, but I really don't care about the interviewees~
If only they had more general articles~

Yes, this is what I wanted to talk about I think~
Shall now try to find an occupation ww

A few days later

Let's just say, I never stopped binging w
Because I think when you play you should play for real and if not then not.
I had an enjoyable time, meet A., did a rainy shooting and ate a lots of sweets. Which A. de bf bought ww

But now I must stop binging or I'll never lose weight. I bought some wonderful trainers today and can't wait to continue gymming!!

I want to buy a cheap bike, too~ There're only 3 bus stops from my place to the gym so I feel a bit stupid to drive there. That's why I'm looking for a cheap fixie to get me there in a sporty way w #nikeshoes

Ok I'm tired again. Bye.

By the way this Naruto ending is pure wisdom. Check this out.

Cultivate your hunger, before you idealise.
Motivate your anger, to make them all realise.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.
My knee is still shaking like I was twelve,
Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice, though but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting, for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'Cause your so right.
Don't dry, with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say dreams are dreams.
I ain't gonna play the fool anymore.
You say cause I still got my soul,
Take your time baby.
The road needs slowin' down.
Reach yourself, before you gloom.
Reflections of fear make shadows of nothing.

You still are blind if you see winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'Cause your so right.
Don't dry, with fakes or fears,

'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.