Saturday, 17 January 2009

Buô`n - But Anti- Depressiva- Programm

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I*m feeling so down, depressed and frustrated lately.
It*s rly a pain.
Not only for school, but aso because of driving school~

Ax, you don*t know how it feels I tell ya.
So... what should I do?

You know what?
I*m a very analytical person. Everytime I*m feeling sad, I think of all reasons for this feeling and try to find a solution for each of them.
Sometimes I lie awake in my bed and I jux feel like there would be a great pressure on my chest.
Then I always start to think and analyse all reasons.
I aso helped my frn like this, when we were in a school field centre {Schullandheim} once and she felt very sad.

So now I gonna do this, too.

Step 1:

Why do you feel sad? Think abt the reasons.
Reason 1: I guess school. But rather in an indirect way. This school yr didn*t go so well and my grades were not so fine.
But actually it doesn*t bother me very much at the moment, since I know that I CAN do better and it*s something that I can change by myself.
Aso I care not too much abt school at the time.

Reason 2: Driving school. It*s jux frustrating, that I do so many mistakes, which are all totally unnecessary. Aww~ well.... anyway~

Step 2:

Find a solution for each single reason
Solution 1: The solution is called learning. But I*m sure that I won*t do that. And anyway I said, I dun care much abt school at the time.

Solution 2: I guess I jux have to pay more attention. I dunno~
It*s so goddmamn frustrating. I hate cars, I hate streets. What should I do? I have to do better nxt time, that*s the only possible way. But it*s unsatisfactory {unbefriedigend}. omfd~
I*m stuck in a.... kinda... un-solve-able-thing. Let*s say an un-solve-able labyrinth {since Harry P. and Cedric D. were in a labyrinth}. It*s only that I have barely space to move, like when the labyrinth would suddenly become narrower and hemming me in {einengen}. Or like Fleur who got wrapped up by that ugly plant xD.
Eeh.. I*m not Harry Potter addicted. It jux came in to my mind, and a comparison is much nice, when you compare sth to sth you like, like Cedric D. e.g. xD
Loolzz somehow I feel better now. Or.. no... let me think... Better, but not so much.
Ac..... let*s move on!

Step 3:

Look around you, think: Is there anything what bothers you, which you can solve right now?
This step is based on a very simple idea: If you can improve your situation in any way, do it now
So, yes I could clean my fucking room. But somehow I*m blogging right now, so~ dunno.
Get*s complicated to do both in the same time.
Well, let*s think of another thing... I could do so many things, like defragmenting my computer {omg that*s such a lame one. don*t you have a life? defragmenting your pc?! you*re so sick! - hey that*s a start, man!}, i think it rly needs a *defragmentation*. Let*s check. No, it says I dun need to do it. I will still do it xD
So, i think this is enough for a cheering-up... I think I do feel better after, I wrote abt it.


Step 4:

is blog abt it! xD
What do you have a blog for if you dun write abt your life, your emotions and bla?
This question, also explains why the stupid excuse
I*m on Hiatus now, cuz I still have a life again, blabla ...
is complete bullshit.
Since you blog is abt your life, blogging and living don*t contradict {widersprechen} each other.

Now comes the last part of my *Anti- Depressiva- Programm*.


Often when you do Step 1 and Step 2 there are problems/ reasons which you can*t find a solution for. Therefore normally you would stay sad because of it.
but NO!, that*s not my logic.
IF there should be a problem that you can*t solve, it is helpless and vain to be sad because of it. I mean, you can*t solve it, do you rly want to be sad abt it your whole life?
E.g. your are sad because of the sky {sounds ridiculous, but in fact it is the same as being sad of any other things you can*t change}. So you can*t change the sky, you can*t change the fact that there is a sky, you can*t delete/ remove the sky. And is it sensible {vernünftig} to be sad because of that? NO.

So don*t be sad of anything, that you can*t change like he doesn*t love you, i dunno what problems you {girly} girls may have... I*m sure I dun have such problems.

So, you see, now you should be at least a bit happier.
Because you found out what exactly are your problems. They are within easy reach or concrete. You now have them in your hands, now you can handle them.
That*s done with finding a solution. When you have found a solution, you know exactly what to do so that you can be happy again. Now you have two options, either you do what you have thought of for a solution, or you live on with the knowlegde of how you could be happy again. I think I mostly take the 2nd way, since I am two lazy to rly do sth against my problems xD

Loolzz.. I bet a psychiatrist now thinks, that such a thinkg is called self-deception {Selbstbetrug}, but I am completely satisfied with the thought, that I know how to solve my problems and that I can solve them. That*s what counts xD
Well, actually not, but my problems are not big and bad enough to see a need for overcoming my laziness.
The main aim of this so-called programm is to achieve an immediate disappearance of the sad feeling. It is achieved with the knowledge of being able to overcome ones problems.

If you should feel sad the nxt day again, just thinkg of that solutions you found xD

I gonna have some sleep now.

Aw..before nearly forgot it. I was so bored the last sad days, that I decided to make some icons. I dunno why I chose to made some and I never made icons in my life before. So some of them are not so great xD
But feel free to use any of them if you want, but remember the ©
Do you know what it means?
It means ©redit xD Feel free to feel bad if you don*t credit me xD

So I think some of them are rly nice xD
Anyway I*m off now. Nite night.


P.S.: I know I used the words *solution* and *problem* a tiny whee to often xD

1 comment :

  1. Haha was hast du denn gegen twilight xD
    Also er hatte doch bei dem unfall 7 leute "getötet"
    Deshalb hat er schlechtes gewissen && schenkt 7 leuten ein neues leben sozusagen ;]
    Yaa schule ist ziemlich stressig T_T
    Ich denke immer in 3 monaten hab ichs geschafft^^