I'm posting this while on the go again, right now I wonder if celebrity lifestyle is like this. Alone, on some tour bus, always going from one place to another.
Actually I just thought that not posting anything would be a waste of time, but I have really nothing I would want write about just like this on my phone. I have been noting down some thoughts of mine into my diary (eventually) and will blog about them in a free minute, when all the stress I'm going through now is over.

While sorting through my millions of drafts just now I found an uber ridiculous post about smelly life. I guess I'll post it some day just for a good laugh. It sounds like I fucking studied law haha
Also I miss how I used to write back then, many trivial rants, full of insults and slang~ I thought I had to write in a more mature way, because writing like dis is stupid la, but now I think I understand everyone should have his own style (as long as it's not totally retarded like smelly life's spelling chaos).

I'm a bit into weight-loss again and my problems are two:

/ whenever I have the choice between food or no food, I shit onto weight loss and eat

/ mostly I forget abt my diet plans and just eat normally, then lying in bed I'm like, 'I actually planned to skip dinner'

So what I really have to remind myself of is that this is a every second-challenge. Every second you have to decide between good or bad. Every second you have to be observant to your actions and conscious of your goals.

below pizza fait maison, just to see how pictures look when posted via app

torn apart - BLEACH

I hate cherry tree banners, icons and artsy-fartsy pics. I saw too many exploitations of that kitsch scenery that I simply had to end up detesting it.
Admittedly, I have one or two cherry tree banners (not 100% sure though), which are kind of pretty, but when I think of those little petals whose pink shade has degenerated into some sort of carcinogenic insult of a color due to massive abuse of layers and some weird amateur ps actions, I start to shiver. Ugly as fuck.
So I really hope that I haven't and will never use a cherry tree banner on this blog. If I have or will have, please report to my present self at once!


Other than that, things change. I actually hate narrow blog layouts, because it's just not suited for displaying big pictures. Still this layout has a quite narrow frame for the posts and I find it pretty wtf.
Oh yeah, it's been some time since I officially introduced new layouts. But desperately trying to blog, I'm forced to celebrate my childish efforts again. Oh I know, I should even try to find a name for this layout, like... er Plain Poetry ok? Nice name onot? It's poetic (ahem) and illustrous?

Also my blog layouts get less and less and lesser pink. And simple. I also don't know what's wrong with me and how this all happened, but I can't do anything against it ㅠ.
Still, I think it's unmistakeable that I have a penchant for this color.

At least layouts like this underline the beauty of texts more and I hope that it will encourage me to update more often (as I think it's also better for shorter posts).

Apropos texts, is the font very horrible? It kind of cuts into my eyes everytime I look at it, but it's only 12px Arial!! Nothing extravagant...

Oh and I'm thinking about adding a c-box~ Should I? I want to make this blog more interactive...

君が明日蛇となり
人を喰らい始めるとして
人を喰らったその口で
僕を愛すと咆(ほ)えたとして
僕は果たして今日と同じに
君を愛すと言えるだろうか

If you were to turn into a snake tomorrow and begin devouring Humans, and from the same mouth you devoured Humans, you cried out to me "I love you!" Would I still be able to say "I love you" the same way I do today?

please take a look at how the verses start - Japanese ftw

Oh yeah, I nicked smelly life's 2nd blog (or whatever it was) URL and have it display my blog instead!

I didn't know she had this blog as well until a few minutes ago to be honest

Ok, the truth is the chick deleted her blog again, leaving her URL for anyone to register. So I thought, why not? I don't understand why people can delete their blogs, I could never delete this. It's like part of my life is all about these pages, how could I throw them away? Bloggers who can just delete their blogs on a whim are scum to me and should not be considered real bloggers! This is my way of the Ninja trying to act all determined Naruto-ish


I'm totally sure that I wanted to say more, but I can't remember what! I'm still so unable to update this blog with my latest purchases, because I'm too lazy to snap pics and worst of all transfer them to my computer. #wefgwedf


Signing off now, it's instant noodle time.
Chu, Ailing

너뿐이야 - JYP (대호 & 반석 Cover)

Hallo guys!
I'm in a super good mood! 왜?
I just checked my spam mails and what did I found! A super super dumbfucked hate mail!
I 러러러브 hate Hahas

Hm
So the reason I blog is this hate mail (yes, something is definitely wrong with me for taking that as a reason)


But first of all:

Why can't anime characters be real?

I wrote the following part years ago so it's totally out of context fyi

Why can't boys be like someone uber fantastic awesome in an anime?
Is it really that hard?

I mean those guys in anime aren't perfect, mostly they are far away from perfect!

They often have very very big flaws (like Sasuke loolzz)! But the problem is even their flaws are cool!
And maybe in the end the whole composition of their different good and bad features makes them perfect?


Idk. It's just a pity. I would love to know that there's a guy who would be like any anime char.

What a world this would be! Just imagine

just some junk that I own
the Rilakkuma and Mamegoma folder + Rilakkuma note pad were all purchased on Japantag 2012 in Düsseldorf - for 2.50Eur each wtf
the key cover is Shappo from San-X's series Sentimental Circus and officially belongs to my fav series/characters! Shappo is too cute!
the Bonny Berry diary schedule thing belongs to my daily necessities, I love it very much!
Underneath it another Korean notebook for drawings and thoughts
And then there's my Ted Baker purse, which I simply love max! I actually just bought it on a whim when I had too much money. Never regretted it

Ok, back to the hate mail, it's acutally v short and hardly worth blogging about!
It's just my nature of loving to analyse and hating back that makes me do it

i have that feeling, that ur life is so poor and boring.

#1

i mean eww.. i get a headache of your music-playlist.

#2

sounds like you having sex with your boyfriend. oups, i forgotten! u don\'t have a boyfriend, cause u\'re just an ugly girl with no future and please.. don\'t forget with \"no boyfriend\".

#3

An wannabe fashion-victim? haha.. sry dude, but u don\'t even looks like that on your profilepic, but one thing is true that u said \"victim\" yea right!

#4

u\'re an motherfucking freakin victim out of sheer stupidity.

#5

ur blog is so sloppy like a stupid , childish playground.

#6

i\'m so sorry for you, but u have no life!

#7

and stop ur gay music.

#8

no wonder that everyone hates you. nobody loves you, only ur little worn out pussy!

#9

bothered to paragraph this piece of prose for you

First of all, who am I to even deserve your hatred?
They make me feel very shiok!

How much time must they have spent obsessing over me?

How do you even know me?
There must be something really captivating about me!


#1: Please feel all the way you can, but who asked you to tell me?

#2: You mean what? How is your headache/ my music-playlist related to my apparently so poor and boring life?
Cannot apply simple logic what?

#3: So basically I'm not an as valuable human as you/ others, because I have no boyfriend, because I'm ugly and have no future (who said that btw?)
Err~ and you have a heart of gold and are a showpiece human for having such opinions

Don't try to insult me with the no boyfriend shit please, I have $$$$ instead, so who gives a fuck?

I'm especially amused about this no boyfriend part, because what this person actually says is I don't have a boyfriend, cause I have no future with "no boyfriend"

Me think you forgotten your brain fyi

#4: I don't look like a fashion victim?
So how does a fashion victim look like?
Got any book were the looks of a fashion victim is specified?
Wait...got none? Then what are you talking about?

#5: So be it lah
If that makes you happy I am an motherfucking freaking victim out of sheer stupidity
Why complain ah?

#6: I don't mind playgrounds, which happen to be childish, because they are for children
But the playgrounds I know are all very clean, cute and beautiful, so I guess you live at a very poor, run-down, ugly, stupid place

#7: Thanks for your sympathy!
I appreciate it. I am still wondering how you knew that I have no life... and is that a bad thing?
Maybe everyone should have the same life as yours in order to live a fulfilled life

#8: Why does this person even listen to it?
I think, I'll never know, because I possess the ability to close a site I don't like.
Also, I not myself write, compose and sing the songs fyi!
The songs are all from renowned artists please! I suggest you to tell them to stop producing music!

#9: This is a very interesting statement!
How do all these people know that everybody hates me? I know that someone I don't even know, once spread that rumor, so this person must be one of smelly life's friend, right?

Please, I'd like to hear them name EVERYONE who hates me, see if they reach more people than the amount of family members I have.

I dare to doubt it




The problem about people hating other people is that you guys just don't know how to criticize, much less thinking logically.

You are making it far too easy for me.


Btw I came to the conclusion that the person, who wrote this mail, can't be a native English speaker.
The decisive factor is this oups, i forgotten!

And who the hell said that I have no boyfriend?
I mean ever googled Choi Jonghoon girlfriend ?!

Tsk~



That's it. I very sad Portugal just lost against Spain!
I wished for CR to score and finally get himself a(nother) nice proof for his genius
Torres didn't even play



Chu, Ailing

P/s: WAIT Jaejoong looks like Cloud!!!

But...



but I can never marry him lah!

世界未末日 - 周杰倫

I'm so FUCKING TEMPTED to start this post with a JONGHOON icon, but it would make me feel like I'm backstabbing all the other FTI members (sick in da brain!)

I found such a maaaaaaddog (yea, I'm still not over maddog) cute icon of him, not that I dun already know that pic, but that doesn't diminish its/his beauty.

Ok, I confess, out of all FTI members, in matter of beauty, I personally totally love Jonghoon most.
But if I had to take an objektive decision about everyone's handsomeness, I couldn't decide between Hongki, Jonghoon and Minhwan and Jaejin (yes, I truly think that Seunghyun is really not that handsome).
Oh yeah, Wonbin is fucking handsome, too, although not so many ppl agree with me on this point.


Well, well after some years of restraint, I just had to write something about FT Island, sooner or later the stowed obsession must be let off a bit.


Talking about years.
I hope next year is going to be the best year of my life. And in case I like you, or you are a total unrelated person to me, you may feel included in my wish!
Lots of luck for your love life, money, happiness, health, joy and satisfaction!


(For people who I hate: cancer, cruel death, preceding suffering among all family members, such as rape, murder, betrayal, loss of assets, etc)

On a sidenote: Who thinks 2012 is going to be the last year of the world, mankind, the universe, time itself?
I...do
not.

As much as I would love to observe how everything's going to end, I think this wish won't be granted.

This street is subsiding down, we are soon to lose our home
Even if the world was to fall apart
Dear, I will never shed a tear
I won't let go of that feeling of having loved
I treasure all the memories with you in them

Even if the world was to tilt
Dear, I will never say goodbye
No matter if the threat of the end looms stronger
We will not be tired if we have love

Some days ago, I watched a documentary film about the Mayas and their calendar and end of the world etc.
Something they said really fascinated me. They said that the Mayans' comprehension for time is completely different from the Western way to understand it.

So goddamn mind-fucking!
For the Mayas time is sth which constantly repeats itself, it's like a circle. There's a certain pattern of events (sth like that la), which after some time return.
While for us Western people, time is like a continuous line, it never comes back again and is forever gone.



Isn't it awesome, that sth, we thought was so fundamental and established as the fact that time passes by, can be questionend or in fact repudiated?


This knowledge allows us to regard our daily doing (and maths and physics *cough*) in a totally different manner.
Don't these two ways of understanding for time determine our whole attitude to life and philosphical reasoning?


People complain about being occupied with their work life too much, everything we do has to be done early, younger persons are better off than older ones, we want to save time and to win time, but if we, too, understood time as something repetitive, wouldn't our lives maybe be much more relaxed and easy-going?
I really wonder.

It's a nice example to show that actually, everything could just be a matter of oppinion.


Actually, the film came to a quite sober ending, like 2012 is just gonna be a normal year, I even forgot, what period is going to repeat itself.
But even this gave me an idea.
If 2012 doesn't bring us the unexpected events we longed for, why not help to make them happen?

To cut a long story short: Ever had a sick idea or mad plans? Now's the time to turn them into reality.
If mind-blowing things don't happen by themselves, make them happen!




I'm a bit bored atm, luckily I have a box with candies from A., which I got yesterday at a belated birthday present.
Us girls were hanging out yesterday, indulging in our fav occupation: bitching abt others

Ok, actually we don't purely rail, we also review people of interest. Like handsome guys or pretty girls.
Very elevating I tell you.

There are no moments (at least in a girl's life) which are as unifying as having the same (negative) oppinion about another human being.
In these momemnts you really feel the true meaning of friendship, or even more ultimate spiritual kinship.






Apropos, guess who is blogging in English?
All my international readers can now, too, enjoy smelly life's stupidity*.

Have I been too mean on her, when I first called her a mentally underdevelopped, subnormal existence?

Nah (>.<), I dun think sow (Ö.ö) Juh guys must agree wif me(°_°), dat while being 20 yearz old :O, she is pwetty sick, rait? (-.-)

How fucking immature is that chick? The way she uses letters should be forbidden and made a punishable offense.


* One last thing about this unhappy creature

Man sollte den Menschen nicht gleich beurteilen, nur weil der doof ist und Unsinn auf seinen Blogg schreibt ^^
One shouldn't immediately judge a person, only because he's stupid or writes nonsense on his blogg ^^

ASDFASDFSDFasdfASDFDfsdfASDFasdFADf

I agree with her.
Maybe a person who uses his blog to violate a keyboard is in fact nice? generous? warm hearted?
(But, maybe this person is none of it?)

But what I can be sure of is that this person is stupid.


Thanks smelly life, for confessing that you are quite dense.


Bullying people with low IQ can sometimes really open your eyes, and suddenly you catch a glimpse of how very deep the abysses of human idiocy actually are.

See, this is not the first time that she's dumb enough to write stuff in which she obviously agrees with me about her imbecility, but I wonder everytime, how can she NOT realize it?!
Beats me.



Well, there are enough good-for-nothings out there, smelly life is just one more punishment for mankind.

Chu, Ailing

P/s: Apparently she got sick of it after two posts.

Roly Poly - T-ara

I feel like sitting down, have a nice cup of tea and just blog

The icon is so pretty, how it's creating the feeling of a happy, sunny summer day




I noticed that at some point of time I stopped blogging with the same attitude I had some years ages ago


Actually I even had/have a diary, but that's just sleeping in its hideout.
In former times, when I was actually too small to have serious thoughts, which I could note down in a diary to preserve them for future generations, I used it like everday.

And today I wonder what I would write in it, if I wanted to write sth in it



At the moment life is super easy on me.
No stress, no anything

I could just simply enjoy it, but I don't (and as I am writing this, I have to think of one single person, who could read this, but that would be... horrible!)

I wonder why can't I just lean back and enjoy life

I always need something to do, you could say I am restless.
There always has to be something, which gives my life sense, sth in the form of education or whatever would make me move on in life.
I actually think that's sad somehow.



So, what I have been doing is scrab-booking like hell!
And I love it!
You know, I used to decorate my diary with lots and lots of stickers and so on, and now I am doing the same with my appointments book.

I'm noting interesting stuffs in it, write poems, sketching...
And of course sticking in cool things.

The other thing I am doing is reading. (boring)
I kind of forgot how to read. I used to read so much when I was around 11-12 years old.
Right now I am reading, too, but maybe it's because of the books, that I am not too captivated.

Then I am trying to learn how to do a lot of nice hair styles.
But I think my hair is a bit too short or so.
For some hair styles it won't be voluminous enough.
Whatever, I am getting better. And since I got a digital perm, my hair has also more grip.

What I also like to do is cooking!
Now that I am staying at home, I really want to do something good for my family members.
The problem is that I don't want to spend that much money on the ingridients.

The last big project I set about if finally finish furnishing my room. OTL
What I need is some furniture (a wardrobe amongst others), doing some paintwork and throwing some stuffs away.
I decided to spend all my money on my room.
Since I got time, I should really get started!





Somehow, it's really really too bad that we don't use all the time we have efficiently enough.
And with efficient, I don't mean being productiv, I rather mean not wasting it instead. Using it in a away that give us a feeling of having done sth good for ourselves or for others
Do you know the quote “The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.” by Betrand Russell. That's what I mean.


But it's also summer.
(Well, sometimes it's raining so much that you could think it's autumn)
The days are so hot, maybe I should have ice cream instead of thinking too much

Btw, talking about summer and stuff.
I wonder if I got a tan in Vietnam. I think my arms and legs are browner, but my face doesn't seem that brown~ On the other hand I used/use some sort of whitening mist each day.
Although,... as if a mist (or toner) could be that effective in bleaching skin.





LoL, the thing is... I'm continuing this entry like a few days later then I started it and I must say I'm not so happy anymore (wtf, did I just ruin your mood? don't let me ruin it!)
Cuz sth happened. ᅲᅲ (ignore)


Actually, I think I'm sad right now. For real lah~


Whatever you dun believe me anyways




Wait. In case that crazy no life smelly life chic is still stalking my blog, I shall emphasize, that I'm still having a much happier life than her *pseudo pride*

Ok, I understand if noone takes me serious. FML


Whatever, my plans changed (so much to planning)

I think I wanna go back to Asia. Whether I'd be alone (most probably) or w/ anyone.
At the beginning I thought I'd like to go to China.
Then I thought, why not Korea?

Now, Korea is still far ahead, but China got a lot more interesting.


Firstly, because you know Chinese statesmen (ok, that may a bit understated since I also mean the president (he is called president, right?)) are visiting Germany right now and have signed many important bussiness contracts with German companies.

I rather like the idea of an emerging Asian power, because I feel that many people just think of some Japanese/Chinese clichés when they hear 'Asia'
Noone heard about Kpop or Asian dramas before, instead they are listening to Selena Gomez or Adela wtf~

On the other hand, I don't like it at all that China is such an impudent country
With their cocky demeanor they represent exactly those Asians, which I detest to death. The Hun, I'm rich and can do everything I want attitude.
Although they neither got sense for fashin (ok, they got, bt not the worst case rich ones) nor for lifestyle at all

Did you know that China is among the biggest customer for luxury goods (among Russia, Brazil and India?).
There are even crash courses in champagne savouring in France or so. (It's because Asian ppl dunno how to enjoy such things/ can't feel the taste wtf, so they have to attend courses, to brag at home)
How poor and lowlife can you get?

And there are those many ppl who are wrongly treated by the hidoi Chinese regime, sth I absolutely hate to the max. When ppl think, they can rule over others



Anyways, back to the topic.
So yeah, I still find it very exciting to experience China's prosperity (which might not be the most correct word, regarding how many poor ppl still live in China).

And also, I heard an interview with Chinese citizens and zomg I love Chinese.
Back then, I hated the sound of the language (and if your earphones suck or the volume is too loud all the zh,q,c, still sound like shit), but now I think it sounds beautiful (still find it strange to say that).

Maybe because of my trip to Singapore~
(But listening to Chinese variety shows or ad channels, I think I got a bit dumber with every sec I listened. Really you feel how it makes you retarded, cuz they talks so fast and noisy and act cute)



Yup, going back would be really nice (I know it makes no sense after what I just said, but just take both as a fact!)
(Btw what speaks against China is the great firewall - can't blog)



Of course, nth beats Korea, bt in Korea I have to contact lots of ppl first and see how long they can bear me Haha
wtf I aso bring money along lah!

Did you notice how my brain/thinking is absurdly twisted?!
Just look at the many secondary considerations I made in brackets!

It's like I think something and immediately may brain associates the thought with a gazillion of others thinks (<- nice typo LOL), which are associated again!
So damn annoying~

That even happens when someone (especially J) asks me sth, instead of answering, I'm going over a hundred options multiplied by really each possible answer (to find the most proper one) in like 10 sec and nearly always come to the conclusion, that the question isn't worth answering

So, I'm not answerin at all, thus J repeats his question a few times (the repeated questions will be blocked by my brain, cuz problem solved already!) until after like 6 times asking, I suddenly notice it and yell I don't care. No idea, wtfbbq


It really pisses me off, cuz I can't blog properly.
At least, it's hard to make my posts unconfusing and give everything a logical connection

Bah!






3rd continuation (same day bt now at noon): not sad anymore, normal instead resp. dunno how to feel~

It's starting to get effin windy atm. Means effin storm is coming up
Means my internet connection will get laggy LOL








Chu, Ailing

P/s: I love the dance of the song I linked above!
It's so funny! I always love how Korean girlbands pull off their whole nonsense concept to absolute perfection! From clothes, to hair style, makeup and dance moves.
Even the gay dude Haha
And the oldschool dance moves are hilarious
Big point of criticism: It sucks big time how every girl band NEEDS a rap part in every song (even it consists only of two English phrases), so they must force on in. wtf the despair and efforts they are making just to squeeze that rap part in is so ridiculous!