Shanghai Romance - Orange Caramel

Hellos Everyone!
Today's post will be only about happy things (as promised)!

First of all, it has been stormy and rainy outside, I love

UNO1
Big Bang and Super Junior will come to the MTV EMAs 2012 in Frankfurt, Germany (at this point of time not 100% confirmed, but come on - who can beat them?)

I can come and see two most iconic Kpop idols (?) at one point of time!
Oh Donghae!
On my Most Handsome Guys Ever list, he's in #1 place! Sharing it with every other guy actually hóhóhó


The EMAs are going to be held on the 11th November, which is FT Island Minhwan's Birthday the day before my birthday! Oh please cannot sponsor me the tickets?
I am ready to take whatever economical loss to buy the tickets , but I heard the majority of them is raffled!
And I don't want to go alone! But one of my friend is damn kiasu man, to afraid to skip tuitions
Other friend I haven't ask first, because she's not so into Kpop, but I ask now, she will say she's 2nd choice one!

Anyways, Super Junior and Big Bang!


DOS2
Cy has got the kareshi
Super awesome! The reason why I call him kareshi is because he is Japanese

I'm already planning Cy's future lah! She must move to Japan and become ViVi model! She already say, she don't want, but well, I will be one of the friends, of whom you hear that they registered their friends at some kind of casting!!
She is 10 times more beautiful than Lena Fuji

Then I can haz a place to stay at in Japan right? Super Win! I may sound slightly selfish here, but I am not! Totally happy that everything went well with both of them!

Omo! Practically my whole life, I've been trying to have something which links me to Japan and now finally - after all these years

The part two of this happy news is that, Cy has done some fab shopping for me and I'm going to collect the stuff tomorrow and show you all!
Most importantst of all she got me Liz Lisa and Emoda stuff! In case you don't know, please read Cheesie's laud to Emoda. It's mostly because of this blog post that I like Emoda! Of course I know it before from ViVi, but never really paid attention to it, because I liked the boho kind of stuff more.

The only thing which is a bit sad, is that she couldn't find the Kawi Jamele store . So I never own Kawi Jamele stuff lah! (that's the brand of my idol Miliyah Kato) and I really love their stuff!

Nevertheless, I am still one lucky girl


TRES3
I started my invisalign treatment! Currently on my 7th aligner!
Unfortunately, I can't show you my mfugly before pics, because - I naturally have straight teeth + underwent a normal braces treatment in my early teenie years already! So no, I don't have hideous teeth like Cheesie (no insult lah pls, her face beats mine 1000 times) to show off progress

The reason why I still got invisalign now is because (am I raping the word 'because'today wtf) my mother is damn fussy about the prettiness of my face, so she absolutely wanted to correct my two front teeth, which are protruding quite a bit. And they are super bigass big also! I'm already famous for them among the staff of my dentist. But my aunt say, big front teeth means super wealth, so I'm ok with them
And models with misshaped front teeth are super popular right now, so embrace your uglyness

A propos my fussy mother, why won't suggest I do plastic surgery also? When I say, I wan nose job, she just say No, I gave birth to you with such a magnificent straight nose, why you want to change it? It looks like plastic surgery already!
My father say looks like Thai plastic surgery somemore!
Pui! I'm not sure what my mom means with straight, but I guess it's big enough to feed a full grown sabre-tooth tiger, talking about needing 10kg meat a day~

(I admit that my nose bridge is somewhat high and in some way is sharp, never irl, but one some pics, it's really high and standing out)

I think I have 27 aligners in total, divided by 4 equals 6.75 months treatment
There are always 3 aligners in one box, going from soft to hard, but all have the same shape. You wear each one for one week and then switch to the next.
It doesn't really hurt to wear them mostly. Only when you switch to a new box, your teeth might feel sort of lose. So eat instant noodles instead


CUATRO4

A superduber hyper mega ultra big once-in-a-happy-decade selca! You are welcome!


or not? is it still a selca if I censored like this one?
It looks like I cut my face, made this black line and then pulled the bottom part further down #opticalillusion (I didn't - my face really crazy like that)

Anyways, I will regret this in probably 2 years time~




Is that enough happiness already? (

I know that there can never be enough happiness

)

Yes, I have many kaoanis and gifs I have lots and lots more, even bigger ones! and un-cute vintage style ones!
I will write an entry to show them off, too, but on this entry I wanted to focus on the smaller ones. (oh my god, that I even have the luxury to say so )

Btw I joined a prize game for the Galaxy Note 10.1, wish me god luck everyone! (god luck is more than good luck!)

Until next time then, fly high
Chu, Ailing

白蛇詩 - Shanghai Restoration Project x Queenie Chan

I am very desperately trying to blog more!
Without anything to say actually hands down


Ok, actually, I have so many things to say.
I just can't/ am too lazy to word them down.

I think, I'm better with writing everything irl, means using a pen and a sheet or paper.
The toughts come out different and the editing is totally different!



My blog is less pink now (whined over that last entry), I hope you like it?
Somehow I am trying to be simplier and mature wtf! How come?

But I know already that my efforts are in vain, because I can never have a constant skincare routine. Every woman I respect, who has settled in life, has a well-conceived skincare routine, which must and will be repeated day by day.
I'm not talking about chairwomen of IGotMoreMoneyThanYou.Ltd, but Xiaxue, QQ or Pony?

What do we learn from women with skincare routine?

the ability to set oneself a goal: PERFECT SKIN
ok, this one easy lar! I also wan have perfect peaches and cream complexion

The ability to unwaveringly pursue this goal!
Buying cosmetics, Trial & Error through all of them, applying until reaching perfect skin, continue to apply after that to maintain perfect skin, spending money for botox or thermage... this testifies true mental strength!

Whereas, I am weak and most of all lazy.
The truly un-grown-up thing about this is to be so irresponsible and indifferent towards one's own resolutions and goals!
How often have I already promised myself to finally pull it through?


Consequently, I - as just scientifically proven - can never grow up!
Thank you!



Between Responsibility Towards Others and Oneself

This is such an adult-y topic that I am totally reluctant to write about it. Because such adult problems don't belong into my blog lol (you see what I did there).
The older you are, the more problems you discover, even with smallest things. As a kid, it's only what you want, that counts. As a grown-up, you suddenly start to worry about others fml. You have a wonderful dilemma, if you add those two to your current life situation!

Now, that it's about time, that I chose my own path in life, I find myself standing between my own wishes and aims, and my parents (and grandparents) expectations.
As an individual, I am most of all devoted to my personal happiness.
But I am more than just me, I am also a daughter (who happends to be not so dumb orz). And as a daughter, I am also commited to my parents' wishes.
And I am also a sister, and as a sister, I am responsible for my brother.

Personally, I'd like to go to somewhere else, learn on my own, see how far I can go and what I can achieve, test my limits and succeed.
But when I go, my brother will fail school LOL Sometimes I wish I were my brother. He's disappointed my parents so often, that they only wish for him to anyhow graduate. So they let him study whatever he wants. And me, the intelligent child, must study the best thing only lar! Be the doctor or engineer!!!
The funny thing is, my brother is the friggin intelligent beast! He IQ of over 200! (I don't know exactly ok? I also don't want to make wrong statement, but very intelligent one!) But he just can't do the school thing, because he says the teachers are stupid and what-not. And if I'm not here, he will dump school, because I'm the only person, who can talk to him on his level.

Anyway, I've come to a standstill. On the one hand unable to decide, on the other hand too scared to go trough the consequences of my decision.
I'm reading a book right now (

unfortunately, not the wise, adult kind of books, so I don't name the title HaHa

), in one situation the girl also has to decide between two things. Both of them seem to be wrong. Then she remembers what her uncle oncle told her.

When things went wrong, the worst you could do was nothing. 'Sometimes you have to make a choice. Maybe it's a good one, maybe not. But it's better than doing nothing.'

I have known this since Day 01, nevertheless I'm dreading to decide.
If only I were different. If only my parents were different. If, if if,~

I hate time. Time flies, time goes. It never comes back. You lose it, second after second. You lack it.
The worst monster that modern society created; it's not money, nor weapons, but time. Time takes our lifes, with every breath we draw. And in the past moments, when we should have lived, we chase time. It runs out and vanishes, taking us closer and further into the uncertainty of the future. The future is a begetting of the time. Spawned out of its elusive, anti-existent nature, the future is a vague shadow, never here, never comes, never exists, but still we feel its pressure.

Especially me.
Or whoever undergoes the same hardship and torture of life - Cheers, there will come a better time - not (LOL).
Ok, ok, sry, don't suicide. I really think, that things change wtih time, and one day everything will be different. If, I could finally made up my mind.


Oh bravo I ruined my carefully built emo pzazz.
Being problem-laden is cooler than being happy! And I rarely manage to dive this deep into the world of despair and frustration.

Which is a good thing!
To make amends I shall blog only about happy things next time! (rarely manage to do that, too!)



Chu, Ailing

Running Up That Hill - Serena

I am wondering.
I am wondering if I should change into a non-pink-fanatic girl.


As you might have guess I go to New York already lah!
V non-problematic to go there (if you are clean lol), but having 1000t luggage to drag along NYC's subway system during rush hour is hell.

After 2h(!) I managed to find the apartment, which is sloping so hard that I felt sick for an entire day. Not to mention that the painfully steep 3 staircases, that I climbed with 1000t luggage in a sloping house!!!


But the apato as such is quite cute! I like it!
And it's upper-east-side-ish somemore!

Ok only two blocks to walk til super rich apatos!



I do think New York is great, but I don't get why people are so mad about it.
C. told me that there have been so many report about New York recently, all praising NY like it's some sort of extraterrestrial Eden.

I - and I guess that makes me terribly un-sophisticated and ignorant - don't think that it has such a great and special flair as is made-up in e.g. the new H&M magazine.

Ok their fashion sense is different from some rural villages in norther France, but - CAPTAIN OBVIOUS?

And there are many people from different parts of the world in NY, but the same applies to other capitals please.


Personally, I don't think any of the big cities have so much of an uber special aura of itself. (Except that people are more asocial wtf)



Nevertheless, NY is great for shopping, that alone counts.
Food is also nice.


I walked so much, btw, that my feet started to bleed lol
It didn't even really hurt (it hurt a bit only), so I never think they were bleeding, but when I took my shoes off to put on a pair of mokacassin-loafers, my socks where soaked in blood.

Good job!!


Most of the pics are on a DSLR, so I can only share the one or two pics of my lousy cam today. better than nothing



#1 the oh-so-smexay Victoria's Secret panties!
They have this 6 for 22.50 deal or so, so I thought why not. But deep deep inside I know that I can get those undies (if not prettier ones) for god-knows-how-much less at any other place.
Alas - the power of branded stuff.

I also don't know why so ugly! I did my best to chose some decent design lar! I think there are even uglier ones! I have another one which is just some simple, fugly apple-green color! So desperate right? Haha



#2 Ted Baker pouch and Sephora x Tokidoki brushes
I bought the pouch only to increase the number of Ted Baker things I own! I love Ted Baker, one of my fav brands!
In comparison to this statement, my purchase is really low~ But the Ted Baker handbags were so expensive! And I kinda needed a bigger pouch.

Actually I also bought a pouch/ clutch at Victoria's Secret, but I dunno where I put it fml so cannot share pic atm


The make-up brushes are love! Even the packaging is irresistable! There's really many many Tokidoki stuff in New York! In Germany, you're lucky enough to spot some Tokidoki x LeSportSac from time to time~ (and they are fugly)

Now, I own the same blush brush as Xiaxue! Shiok max!
Plus, the Tokidoki stuff is on sale lah, so I win big time right?



#3 DKNY travel set (bag, passport case, luggage tag) and Burt's Bees lip stain
Super love this travel set! It looks so fashionista-like right? Topmodel max!!!
And it's transparent! I can't get enough of transparent stuff!

I can wear it as a clutch to social events, too!
Only the oversied MADE IN CHINA thingy bugs me~ Begone!

I don't know what got me when I bought those lipstains. Effin overpriced I think. Just looks cool with the black~ (The blue things are samples from Korea btw)



#4 Samples
Talking about samples, I think I own more than any cosmetics shop!
This is but a fraction of all I have! Many of whom might developped into some poison already.



And since this block entry is so un-pink already:

I hate people who mainly dress black.
You can't dress all black and tell me, that it's just your fancy of that style etc.

I am convinced that persons who wear all black, all unconsciously want to express their 'life experience' (focusing on all its grievousness of course).

And I hate it.
Dwelling on the pass. Unable to let go.
Mudbloods. Filth. Stains of dishonor. Taint of shame -- (*

uber funny pun; later I explain

)

Yeah.
I always liked that I like to color pink.

But recently-
I'm finding myself more and more attracted to other 'styles', to be precise 'clothing styles'.
And it bothers me.


I never liked to wear pink things in the first place, so actually I'm thinking complete garbage, but I'm fearing that I'll lose my pink-obsession and quirky-ness in general and become a mainstreamer instead.


Lately, I'm a bit into plain black-and-white-ness myself, or Mode style (which is the Japanese style for mature, sleek, bold, high-fashion looks) also I like punk more (I have always liked punk) and also boho-ethnic style (also always liked).

Actually, I somehow have no defined clothing style, but I wear really everything orz


But I am never one of this black rapist (a neologism by me for people who hardly wear anything which is not black).
It's such a stupid and dumb behaviour.

Don't pretend you have high-end, superior fashion sense, when actually you are just whining over the cruelty of living.
As a matter of fact, I hate Alexander Wang. Fu blackness.




That's it.
Ailing

P/s: *I say I hate Black, and quote Mrs. Black, Sirius Black's mother cursing Harry and the other, when they were at the house of her fathers get it?

So clever one!

Valse Sentimentale - Tchaikovsky

What is this? It's a NEW BLOG POST! 時間だ!

Lately (since a few years when even I finally started to develop sth similar to self-reflection actually) I have been thinking much much about my personlity


Triggered by a certain event in Paris recently, a new thought added up to the many questions and theories I already have about myself.

And, I'd never thought that I'd say sth like this seriously, but I think

I AM TOO NICE

Ok, ok you all know me as an malicious individual, being extremely fond of cursing people, who loves to bully poor smelly life simple-minded fellow men around and and and
I just love hating?


But, my lifetime bestie once already said this and I haven't forgotten it since then:
I once asked her if I was more a butch (maskuline woman) or a femme (femminine woman).
Because I noticed in my school's toilet, where we partly have paper dispensers to dry the hands, that there are girls who in the most brutal way whack this little lever down and just teeearrrr the paper out!
Then again there are dollies who just take ages to move that lever down and obtain their paper to dry their hands.


I was wondering whether I was more the brute or the softie and my friend said I was quite 和缓!!! (means being gentle, mild, kind etc)

I never expected that, I always believed that I'm a bloody unelegant plonker, who has nothing of a refined woman.

And in Paris in some Café we observed a Chinese lady who was about to leave and woah she took her time to pack her stuff, I tell you.
My friend said she looked me, so I asked whether I was so slowpcoach-ish and lethargic,too. And she said yes.


And together with this hehuan attitude of mine, I'm also damn naive and happy-go-lucky one!
Until now I thought that this is quite a good quality, because I'm not in a bad mood often, I'm always positive about things, I'm always content and happy with whatever I'm having to deal with and according to The Secret I attract more and more happy things because of this! *throws confetti*


But now I'm also taking into consideration that I'm also very vulnerable, prone to betrayal and other bad things which just happen in life, if you are too ingenuous to take precautions
If you just blindly trust!

(

I'd like to note that with trust I'm not talking about persons, because wordly things can't touch me, I'm talking about sth like trust your luck)

It's kinda really making me think a lot nowadays I'm not quite sure if I should try and be more suspicious or careful?
My parents are super anxious all the time, my friends too, and until now I found that super irritating, annoying and old-fashioned!!!

Why can't they be all positive and happy-fluffy-sunny like me?

It seems to me that there's always something about anything which makes them dissatisfied, which gives them reason to worry, which is cause for concern, which spoils the whole thing.

I super hate negative persons , I don't care what happened to them in the past or whatever oh-so-philosophical ideology might be behind this, I never accept negative attitudes!


But yes, maybe I'm too childish, maybe I'm dumb, I don't know.
Maybe I should change, I don't know.



And now, in view of ocassions and to further underline my pollyannaish and entirely deluded attitude to life, three pictures I did ytd night and today
Hit by some sudden inspiration:

The idea behind #1 is that, everything, starting from yourself, can be either beauty or uglyiness depending on how you look at it.
We should always keep and open eye and heart for all the wonderful things in life.
Imperfection can turn into the opposite and vice versa.


Xcution: The background has no special meaning at all, I just thought the colors are very nice. Of course, I know a certain teacher of mine, who could interprete all sorts of stuff into these dull, grey-ish colours

The font for Perfection is very very classic, very elegant, well-proportioned and even. It represents the word itself.

The font for I'M is clearly handwritten styled. The irregularities reflect everybody's or MY individuality. I'm not even talking about flaws or anything. It's simply, that we are all different and cannot be like the Perfection letters, we can't be all the same. But, nevertheless we are all perfect. Because they are bolder than the other thin letters (again opportunity to interprete shit!) they also emphasize the I AM and allow them to gain center stage.

#2 is from the idea quite lame and I don't completely support it.
The word Beauty is punned into it's syllables, which conveniently are homophonic to the words Be and You.

You could also read, 'Be You, Thank You', which again could be interpreted in different ways

The message: Beauty is Being Yourself.


Xcution: Oh yeah the background is pink, the color of girls, who like to be beautiful. I admit that this picture's message is not the only thing lame about it LOL. The grey and white stripes were just impedimenta to make it seem like more work. It may or may not look better without them.

The font again is hand-written to convey the message of individuality better. To show that Beauty lies in you, in everyone of us!!! The problem about this idea is that you have to be careful to avoid visual assocations with YOUTUBE, since most of us frequent that site so often that the letters yout are automatically saved in connection with that video streaming site (see?!).

Er the main focus lies on the big Y, again to further foreground the YOU! I chose a font which copies the font in elementary school books, you know when they learn how to write properly. It mocks the idea of individual beauty, because it's trying to establish an aesthetic norm.
At the same time, the outlined font and the little pens 'flying' around it, make it seems like it some kind of decorative, baroque style thing, with all the flowery, pompous beauty that comes with it. It's supposed add this simple touch of beauty to the whole image.

Last, but not least is #3. Maybe this is a bit harder to understand?
Again a wordplay on 'Beauty'!!!
The message is the same as in #1, and very much my philosophy of life!

At 1st you read Life is full of BUT, meaning, many people never do anything, always complain, in the manner of I'd like to be like this, but.
But is everywhere.

If you re-read you will hopefully see those little dots and magically the sentence turns into Life is full of Beauty/ Bee-Yu-Tee.

See EVERYTHING magically and wonderfully turns into Beauty depending on your state of mind!


Xcution: I must disappoint you, colors and fonts are just for aesthetics!

Ok, end of this wordy post!
I will post soon again, about my other hobbies - FASHON & DIZAIN!!!!


Chu, Ailing